Adopt a Christmas tree!

From day 1 when my social circle start expanding, most of the time I would be known or labeled as a "kind or good person". Sometimes I even get as far as a "gentlemen".

After many years of making friends and in the same time turning some into enemies, I start to wonder if coming of age does something horrible to this "kindness, goodness or even gentleness" of mine. Slowly, I discover there's something else within me that makes me wonder are those titles mine to carry in the first place.

Mystery of the universe huh? Not really, just a thought that occasionally hit me when I'm extremely moody. Either that or because the festive season is arriving. Some how big celebrations brings the worst out of me. I hate holidays and I hate festivals... times like these makes me awkward and out of place. Heck...

Any huuu, on a totally off note, if you want to get a Christmas present and you don't have any idea what to get and in the same time its been ages since you last donated for a cause... you can actually get one of these items below :

Wah so gold ar...

Wah red red like chinese new year ar...

They are Christmas trees decorated by One Academy student to raise funds for their graduation. Do support these bunch of talented and hardworking future designers, animators and even directors and give them a graduation that they won't forget.

Do let me know if you want to purchase one of those wonderfully decorated Christmas-sy tree.

Blonde and Cars...

A few days ago I was having some work done at my local garage. A blonde came in and asked for a seven-hundred-ten.

We all looked at each other and another customer asked, 'What is a seven-hundred-ten?'


She replied, 'You know, the little piece in the middle of the engine, I have lost it and need a new one..'


She replied that she did not know exactly what it was, but this piece had always been there.


The mechanic gave her a piece of paper and a pen and asked her to draw what the piece looked like.


She drew a circle and in the middle of it wrote 710. He then took her over to another car which had its hood up and asked 'is there a 710 on this car?'


She pointed and said, 'Of course, its right there.'

Standby Mode...

Well, have been offered to be on standby technical support for the finance team last week.

Boss confirmed the deal and slight increase in my income. Wonderful eh?

Some how I am not as excited as I thought I would. Grateful to God for the offer, definitely. The allowance that I get from the deal is more than enough to keep me stay on working for the company for another year. But...

Anyhow, yesterday had another chilling session with some of my old mates. It's been awhile. Like Metal says, everybody is growing up, no time for gatherings, what more girlfriends? Can't say I totally agree to that but, maybe because I'm not as grown up as I'm suppose to be?

Need to start doing something purposeful and fruitful during Sats and Suns... weekends are getting way boring nowadays. Need to get some classes or exercises going on, feeling like a bum every weekend isn't really what I call boosting the ego.

On a lighter note, I'm getting a new phone and a new postpaid line soon! Thanks to my allowance.

Age of 23

Age of 23 is such an awkward age. We are neither fully a grown up nor are we still the young punks that we us to be when we were 18.

Experiences or even lessons that we have gone through thus far, whether rough or smooth, does not grant us the authority or even credentials to proudly declare that we've been through life and I don't really think that the younger ones should heed our sayings. At least not just yet.

As much as we can be talented and be excellent in our studies, work and so forth, I still don't think we have gone through enough to be giving life lessons to others. In fact, I would believe that many of us at this age are still growing. Some of us have purpose, some of us don't, but which ever category we falls into, we are still learning how to be a grown up.

But having all that said, I'm enjoying my age of 23 and am thankful that I can take things slowly work wise. It is pure blessings for me to be able to reach this stage of life. And I do pray that such blessings will extend for many many more years to come. And that my family will be blessed as well.

Just thought of putting this down. Nothing much, just a random post.

Updates...

Woah... it's been awhile since I updated this place. Anyhow, lets recap on what I have done during my absence.

Penang trip was a blast, definitely fun just eating, chilling and watching dvd. But sleeping on the sofa isn't a good way to rest... back ache...

Quest to buy a handphone for myself have not come to an end yet because the phones that I wanted to get turn out to be nothing great after all. But I am fixing my eyes on Samsung U700. Cool phone. Only cons - Priceh... whooping RM 15++.00

I want a new comp and a 22 inch LCD monitor as well! Either LG or Sony. But Asus looks promising as well though.

Been spending alot of time with my colleagues. What to do, its convenient since everybody stay so near. Besides, they are fun to hang out with.

I need to put my tithes into the offering bag!! It's been accumulating since few months ago! Argh...

Anyhow, have never felt so aimless before in my life up till now. Plans to work my way up from bottom crushed when the new jackass manager and his trustee idiotic sidekick took over the department.

Like Metal says, don't bite the hands that might control your future. I agree... but in addition to that statement, I would like to add "bite it after you got your future and surpasses them". ;)

Siah logging off...

Funny!

One fine day I would wish to be able to pull this off towards some clients of mine.

Heh...sooo funny!

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This is a true story from the WordPerfect helpline. Needless to say, the help desk employee was fired; however, he/she is currently suing the Word Perfect organization for "Termination without Cause."

Actual dialogue of a former WordPerfect Customer Support employee with a caller:

Customer Support: "Ridge Hall computer assistant; may I help you?"

Caller: "Yes, well, I'm having trouble with WordPerfect."

CS: "What sort of trouble?"

C: "Well, I was just typing along, and all of a sudden the words went away."

CS: "Went away?"

C: "They disappeared."

CS: "Hmm. So what does your screen look like now?"

C: "Nothing."

CS: "Nothing?"

C: "It's blank; it won't accept anything when I type."

CS: "Are you still in WordPerfect, or did you get out?"

C: "How do I tell?"

CS: "Can you see the C: prompt on the screen?"

C: "What's a sea-prompt?"

CS: "Never mind. Can you move the cursor around on the screen?"

C: "There isn't any cursor, I told you, it won't accept anything I type."

CS: "Does your monitor have a power indicator?"

C: "What's a monitor?"

CS: "It's the thing with the screen on it that looks like a TV. Does it have a little light that tells you when it's on?"

C: "I don't know."

CS: "Well, then look on the back of the monitor and find where the power cord goes into it. Can you see that?"

C: "Yes, I think so."

CS: "Great. Follow the cord to the plug, and tell me if it's plugged into the wall."

C: ".......Yes, it is."

CS: "When you were behind the monitor, did you notice that there were two cables plugged into the back of it, not just one?"

C: "No."

CS: "Well, there are. I need you to look back there again and find the other cable."

C: ".......Okay, here it is."

CS: "Follow it for me, and tell me if it's plugged securely into the back of your computer."

C: "I can't reach."

CS: "Uh huh. Well, can you see if it is?"

C: "No."

CS: "Even if you maybe put your knee on something and lean way over?"

C: "Oh, it's not because I don't have the right angle - it's because it's dark."

CS: "Dark?"

C: "Yes - the office light is off, and the only light I have is coming in from the window."

CS: "Well, turn on the office light then."

C: "I can't."

CS: "No? Why not?"

C: "Because there's a power outage."

CS: "A power... A power outage? Ah, Okay, we've got it licked now. Do you still have the boxes and manuals and packing stuff your computer came in?"

C: "Well, yes, I keep them in the closet."

CS: "Good. Go get them, and unplug your system and pack it up just like it was when you got it. Then take it back to the store you bought it from."

C: "Really? Is it that bad?"

CS: "Yes, I'm afraid it is."

C: "Well, all right then, I suppose. What do I tell them?"

CS: "Tell them you're too stupid to own a computer."

Back to back trip

Woohoo... My trip finally arriving!

First trip Ulu Yam! Most probably to a place called Sendat Falls.

Picture courtesy of waterfallsofmalaysia.com

Picture courtesy of waterfallsofmalaysia.com

Picture courtesy of waterfallsofmalaysia.com

For more details of Sendat, click on those pictures. :)

After that, the next trip will be to - Penang!!!

Bos! Char Koay Teoh satu!

Project: Room Transformation

Intro

The idea of making my room a little more comfy and adding a little more character to it have been in my head for quite some time. I think it is about time I finally start putting plans into action. Or at least start to plan and search for suitable items to replace some of the furnitures inside my room.

Transformation 1: The Desk

At the moment, the one thing I want to replace the most is my study table. Bought it since 1997, the first year of high school. Parents probably having hopes that I will one day be a scientist or a doctor... hmm... anyway, there's nothing wrong with my table but it is time to let my table go.

Here's a picture of my table:

Current study table

Can you see how much space is my table wasting? And it is not suitable to be a computer table because I have no wrist space when I want to type. And of course I want to expand my comp speakers into something bit more fancy. :)

Anyhow, I roughly had an idea of how my new table going to be. It should be a corner table that look something like the table below:

Sexeh new table!

Once I get something like this, gone be the messy wiring, gone be the little wrist space and here comes my sexeh new speakers!

Next Post -

Transformation 2: The Speakers

Sweet ride for the feet

Oh look! It's a converse plastic bag! hmm.. What is it doing in my room?

There's a pair of shoes inside!

Woohoo... mah new sexeh pair of Converse and its free! I love shopping with mom!

Heh... seriously, nothing much to post about, this particular post is dedicated to those bimbo-ish bloggers out there. We don't care about your new pair of bras or new set of steroids built biceps... >.<"

Life as it is - mundane. And I can't be talking too much about work because it will be a bore. New manager is still an ass, now there's an additional ass licking prick that have join him in torturing the daylights out of the unfortunate us. bla bla bla... can't wait to get even when I get the chance... IF i get the chance to... pffftt...

Hmm... I think I'll just play around with the new camera that my sister bought with her own allowance... basically mom will be paying for that too... lousy sister... don't know how to earn but know how to spend already. :P

Ciaozoo...

Addiction

Addiction in any form proves to be deadly.

It occupies your mind, your body, overall... your life.

What ever the obsession is, it does not matter, the only thing is that it will cling on to you to a point where you in return holding on to it like there's no tomorrow.

May it be addiction to tell a lie, addiction to games, addiction to alcohol... whatever form, addiction destroys life.

Have you had an addiction lately?

The girl who is precious were born...

Happy Birthday Kristy Tan Wei Shia!

May you get abundant and abundant blessings and then blessed others abundantly at the same time as well.

Have a great birthday! :)

The girl who went Indonesia...

Yo! All the best Karyn! :)

You would probably be busy figuring out where classes at, having culture shocked, preparing yourself for the ragging, and 1001 more other things you need to attend to over there. But if you read this then yup, sorry couldn't send you off. Would love to but work was hectic.

Anyhow, enjoy your stay while you are there. God still rules even though you are at a foreign land. See you this December if you are coming back and hope you will get to know your laptop better as fast as possible when your Dad brings it over. ;p

Heh... ciaozoo...

Dumb Lawyer's One Liners

Having a pretty mixed up feelings at the moment.

But what the hey, life goes on. Anyhow, bumped into few one liners that cracked me up a little bit. Hope you guys like it.

Lawyer: "You were there until the time you left, is that true?"

Lawyer: "Were you alone or by yourself?"

Lawyer: "You don't know what it was, and you didn't know what
it looked like, but can you describe it?"

And the best line any lawyer could ever give while in court would be this:

Lawyer: (realizing he was on the verge of asking a stupid
question) "Your Honor, I'd like to strike the next question."

Well its not all that funny but it is amusing to be able to think of some people you know of who often asks questions like these. Don't you think?

And I really really want to finish this game:

GoW 2

Timely Update

Been MIA from me blog for quite a while now. Busy with work and then busy with de-stressing after that. Come to think of it, I've been MIA from church settings for quite some time as well, not that I can help it. But will try making myself available.

It's been 1 year and 1 month working in IBM, I think it is time to change settings. Need job with more stress and more pay. But if I do leave IBM, only reason I will miss IBM tons would be all the friends that I've manage to make there till now. Most of them are similar age or wave lengths. Surprisingly, they allow me to be me.

What does that mean? Means that all of them does not force themselves to grow up but rather enjoy the process of being young and being an adult at the same time. It is definitely a mixed feelings and the perspective that they have while facing troubles or hardships varies. But in the end of the day, we still can gather and laugh at each other's childish acts.

Why bother being some one you are not just because some people that you know have tell you off when they don't even know you that well. I don't know, to me anything goes as long as I am alright with it. I don't have to be right all the time and I don't mind making mistakes and enjoy the process of growing up.

Sigh, with such good environment to work at but sudden change of management caused the whole team to go into a frenzy state of unnecessary stressfulness. I think on the last day when my threshold meet its limit, I will allow my distaste to consume me and give my 2 cents to the new manager. That I am capable of...

Oh well, I'm a rebel...

Dream Come True

There is this kid, whose name is Siah. This is a story about him.

Few years ago Siah had a dream, a dream to achieve Hyper Treadingness when he got his new Black Machina. But due to under budget, he can't afford to upgrade the firing rate of this Black Machina to Hyper Treading (HT).

All he need is a microchip and his sexeh Black Machina will be firing rounds and rounds of plasma rays with ease. He's been wondering for way too long to remember how long will he get himself an upgrade...

But it's all over now, all those times of day dreaming about the upgrade have come to an end. Now with the help of 512mb Kingston DDR1 RAM, the Black Machina fires up like smooth chocolate. Ooh... hotz... People meet the RAM :
I lover you RAM!!! 1GB babeh!

Employer vs Employee

When I Take a long time to finish, I am slow,
When my boss takes a long time, he is thorough.

When I don't do it, I am lazy,
When my boss does not do it, he is busy.

When I do something without being told, I am trying to be smart,
When my boss does the same, he takes the initiative.

When I please my boss, I am apple polishing,
When my boss pleases his boss, he is cooperating.

When I make a mistake, you're an idiot.
When my boss makes a mistake, he's only human.

When I am out of the office, I am wandering around,
When my boss is out of the office, he's on business.

When I am on a day off sick, I am always sick,
When my boss is a day off sick, he must be very ill.

When I apply for leave, I must be going for an interview,
When my boss applies for leave, it's because he's overworked.

When I do good, my boss never remembers,
When I do wrong, he never forgets.

Bully Pwnzed

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Unconventional Hang Man

This is dang funny... only a pure genius can come up with this. ROFL...

Yodelayiyo!

Windsurfing this August, Singapore here I come!

Syucks... this trip is going to cost me a pain in the tush... grrr... but this is the long awaited trip so its going to be the trip of the year!

Sun... Sea... Sand and ... here I come!

I wonder if he is going to be there to great me or not this time... hmm...

Haha... "Welcome to Singahpoh!"

Scribe Fire and Safari 3 Public Beta

Recently have been browsing through some of the add-ons provided by Firefox and accidentally bumped into a pretty neat blogging tool called the ScribeFire.

Basically it is a tool that allows you to blog as you browse. If you so happen to bumped upon a pretty neat site or some interesting information, you can easily just use ScribeFire to post it up to your blog.



The another new application I've been trying out is the Safari 3. Safari 3 basically is the internet browser made specifically for Apple before this but now they have made a version for the Microsoft Windows users. It is still in its Beta state though. But no harm to try it out.

The browser loads up pages and web applications slightly faster than the rest of the browsers available, the plus point is the silver-ish interface, it is Sweeet. Safari 3 really does loads faster by a few seconds which is pretty fast if you ask me.



Break time's over. Time to get back to work now. Have fun Amigos.

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Ultimate Rejection Letter

Herbert A. Millington

Chair - Search Committee

412A Clarkson Hall, Whitson University

College Hill, MA  34109



Dear Professor Millington,



Thank you for your letter of March 16.  After careful consideration, I

regret to inform you that I am unable to accept your refusal to offer me

an assistant professor position in your department. 



This year I have been particularly fortunate in receiving an unusually

large number of rejection letters.  With such a varied and promising field

of candidates, it is impossible for me to accept all refusals. 



Despite Whitson's outstanding qualifications and previous experience in

rejecting applicants, I find that your rejection does not meet my needs at

this time.  Therefore, I will assume the position of assistant professor

in your department this August.  I look forward to seeing you then. 



Best of luck in rejecting future applicants.



Sincerely,

Chris L. Jensen

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Ocean's Night Out

Sequels sequels... tons of that are coming out, but so far non of them are really impressing. But they are still rather enjoyable since I watched a few of those with different clicks of good friends. I think probably that is why I rather not watch a movie alone. So far Ocean's 13 is the latest sequels that I've watched and not a bad one I guess considering the fact that the casts are mega stars.

There are few things guys would never be too tired or too sick to talk about, namely girls, cars or sports related. But after yesterday's mamak session with Anthony, Daniel, Aaron and Sek Teng, I found out another intriguing topic that might be the new "IN" thing for the guys to talk about, the topic would be about MUSCLES. Yes, you heard me right, muscles. We spent whole half an hour or so talking about who's having the better looking muscles while watching wrestling programme on the projected screen. Sigh... are we that bored or the muscles are just so interesting for us to be talking about.


Anyhow, I want to get a new phone! Dumb phone is acting up already. Buttons are not responding, batteries life are like the lifespan of a delicious chocolate bar before a fat guy. W880i!

Wadaday: The Limits

I refuse to believe that Mondays are usually the worst day of the entire week. Even if today was a really stressful day, I almost used up my 1 week's worth of patience in 1 day. All thanks to people who envies me being jolly good mood on a Monday. God is working my patience out I think.

First thing in the morning I have to deal with a colleague who's common sense amounts to zero, either that or this colleague of mine likes to see how far can I be pushed before I start being sarcastically mean and start using subtle puns to ruin the day for her. She made me wait for her outside of the office building for 45 mins while she was nicely inside the building enjoying the aircond. A simple instructions such as bring the items to the lobby and load it into the car when I arrive. Now which part of the instructions says that I will be parking my car illegally on the road side and coming down from it to get her from within the building? Urgh...

Then if I wasn't irritated enough, as I returned to the office quickly I was charged at by a user who's machine was dropped carelessly by himself to the ground hence cracking all the parts that could possibly be cracked in a laptop turning a passionately built machine into an unusable piece of junk, despite of having any sense of guilt and regret, this joker have the cheek to demand for a replacement there and then and being all snobbish for no apparent reason as though his ancestors own the runs the company since thousand of years ago. He showed really little respect to the machine and to the guardian of all the machines in IBM - ME...

But I must say, in both situations I reacted professionally and Christian-likely since I did not react negatively or angrily towards both of them. In fact, I was helpful and polite until the very end. Because I just didn't want them to have a bad Monday like me just because of some small incidents. Yes small incidents... nothing to be obsessed about or to be grudging about.

Why did I post up this story then? Well there are two reasons, one is just to remind my readers that a lot of crappy incidents will happen in a lifetime and its not worth our time to be holding on to each and every one of those incidents. Let it go as fast as you can. The second reason would be, I just wanted to test if the Moji on my right will wake up from its deep slumber or not... dumb Moji, been sleeping for the past few days. Grrr...

Have a great week. Ocean 13th here I come...

Tagged by the knees!

5 things found in your bag
- keys
- wallet
- handphone
- access card
- pen

5 things found in your purse/wallet
- calendar
- money
- bank card
- ID
- receipts

5 favorite things in your room
- bed
- computer
- fan
- cd/dvd stash
- aircond

5 types of humans
- there are 5 type of humans? gosh! and there I thought there's only one type of human which is human.

5 things you've always wanted to do
- Stay at a place where all your friends are staying nearby.
- Go to Europe
- Become wise
- Learn Martial Arts!
- Get eight pax like leon

5 things you're currently into
- God
- Girls
- Games
- Get paid
- Go go agogo

people you tag
- Everyone who wants to do this

There you go niseh!

Wadaday!

Line of the day:

Girl from China: May I know what is the probrem to mai machine?
Me from Blurland: *press press keyboard, no response* Oh, it's your mother'sfault.
Girl from China: Huh?
Me from Blurland: *realized I said the wrong thing and am blushing now* Erm, its your motherboard fault----y.

Sigh... this sorta thing happens when you are kim siah. Plus when you have to handle users all by yourself even tho there are other colleagues around who just wouldn't bother to do their job and for the management not to hire sufficient people to handle the tasks at hand. Was at the verge of letting my frustration and dissatisfaction explode but the better side of me got a hold on myself and woke me up on time. It would be disastrous if I were to dwell in that moment a lil longer.

On a lighter note, suppose to go watch Shrek 3 with Judah and Xiao Wen today but they ffk me. Sad... but good thing my 7th sense told me that it is dangerous to purchase the ticket first so I didn't. Wahahah...

Karyn, I want to watch Blades of Glory!

美人关

英雄从古至今有哪一个能安然无恙的闯过美人关?
若英雄也难以闯关,一届平民的在下又有何的何能独自胜任闯关大将呢?
美人也罢,闯关也罢,
大将也罢,平民也罢,
最终若能踏实的活至人生的最尽头,
无悔也无愁不亦乐乎,矣!

Sexeh Black Machina!

I want this sexeh babeh!

I want my trip!

I think if given a long holiday the thing I long to do the most is to go on a road trip or backpacking. Either one will do since both activities resolves in traveling away from where I currently am right now. I don't think it would cost much, nothing that I couldn't afford since I've been working for almost a year now. Besides, I've never been on a trip since... since I could ever remember.

I want my trip!

Having that said, the part where you gather a bunch of good friends for the trip is the toughest egg to crack since everybody have their own schedules to follow and it is near to impossible to agree on a date and time. This is really frustrating.

I want my trip!

Sigh, for those of you who wants to go on a short breakaway during your holidays or while u are clearing your leaves, want to go for a short trip to anywhere but Selangor?

I want my trip! Roar....

Core

The center of my being, the core, the source of life that is moving me about… Have I allow God to be at that place of power in my life? After reading Aunty Chiew Har's email, I felt more compelled to pay more attention in discovering the answers to the question above. Her email is like a timely alarm that wakes me up from my drowsiness after being drunk with life's affairs which consists of the usual ups and downs moments.

I've been an ambassador of Christ for almost 6 years now and I clearly remembered that my progress of reaching out have been rather stagnant. But nonetheless, I am still trying my very best each day to be a light unto people around me and as surprisingly as I might sound, I find that I do glorify HIS name in a very unique way, a way that HE tailored right into my character. It might not be a huge revival movement, but I believe as time pass and as I continue to have the love and passion when I first accepted Christ, HIS ways will be revealed in due time.

Yes, I must profess this loudly so that my journey in this lifetime will impactful and that more and more of HIM are seen in my actions and behaviors.

However at the age of 23, I will still live life with pretty much spontaneous vibrancy as much as my remaining strength generated from my old body could sustain.

Alrajhi no more!

Alrajhi you can kiss my beautiful behind goodbye babeh cause I ain't gona see your ugly main door evah again!

Haha, yeah I'm pretty excited because I'm returning to the IBM HQ located in between TV3 and First World Hotel this Monday people! Ain't that cool? There will be tons of work waiting for me and I'll be the only one handling all those malfunctioned machines and programs because my colleague took 2 days leave to celebrate my return! How thoughtful of her.

I want to learn martial arts! It's like my childhood dreams to be able to do all those back flips, mid air spinning kick... etc... And I want muscles! Proportionate muscles!

Happy weekend, I'm getting new shoes tomorrow! woohoo!

For the Broken Hearted

This week been really tough for me to go through because a girl that I like or should I say I thought I had feelings for got together with a good friend after telling me that she is not into relationship yet. Makes me feel like a looser at first, but she was pretty nice to me by saying nice things like "You are a good person" yada yada yada... And then having her now boyfriend calling me after that to say "Hey, I hope this won't affect our friendship. We still can hang out together right?" Yup, hang out like a happy family I replied.

All this happened within a day and suddenly, I felt so helpless. I wouldn't really use the word looser because I did not go after the girl or do anything special to get her attention or so forth. I just merely told her a long time ago that I kinda like her. So technically speaking it was as good as nothing. But I doubt it will happen anyway because of obvious issues like compatibility and bla bla bla... Yet it still hurts even though the feelings I had for her wasn't as strong as before.

So thinking that this is bad, I tried to vent to a friend whom I know and so happen to see online the next morning since I was pretty bored in Alrajhi. I guess I was really being a wuss here and looking for comfort at a wrong place hence forth I was being called annoying. That I annoyed the day lights out of this friend. I was puzzled actually at first, but then I found out that actually the friend got annoyed because I was whining too much, being very negative about myself. But couldn't blame my friend because she got pretty unhappy before I was able to finish my ill fated story. Plus I emphasized the fact that she is important to me a lil too much. However, she was honest and told me that there are no hope between us even before I could do anything in years to come. Bam... Double Whammy. At this point of time, if you were me, you would feel like you are the world most unworthy piece of crap because two girls in the span of two days deny you of any chance to go after them long before you have taken any actions. *Ouch*

The friend was so happen to be a girl, yes you are right, what in the world am I doing venting to a girl right? So I am asking for it isn't it? Yes you are right as well. So up to this portion of the post, moral of the story is that listen to your pastors when they say guy go to guy and girl go to girl when it comes to love affairs and advices. Go to your pastors or older leaders and not peers, peers don't really help much other than making things complicated for you because they give you too many choices. Pastors will only tell you yes, no or wait, simple as that.

So the reason I wrote this post sharing my feelings and being really vulnerable here is because I hope who ever that faced or are facing the same issue to not think about it too much and trust God in all that is happening. Yes, even if you have to be a 40 years old virgin. Because in the end of the day when it comes to issue of the heart and freedom of choice, we are really not in control and should not try to dominate the situation or even having the slightest smart aleck idea of trying to play God. You will just end up getting burned. Helplessness is all that we can find if we tried to force our way through.

Woohoo so to end this random but yet personal post, I would like to say a big thank you to those who went mamak and dagei with me. Leoric, koala and metal, thanks for the time even though I doubt you guys know how much does the incident affected me. But I am alright now, I can say that through the few days of pain and reflections that I went through, I understand a lil bit more about myself. No I am not a looser, I am just not ready yet to go into a relationship. Maybe next year? I think I will withheld all feelings from now on and really learn to guard my heart. It will be tough considering the fact that I get close to people I like very fast and I am a very personal person. Sissy eh? haha... well that is me, a sensitive man. I can still be macho if I want to.

Have a great week, I am having holiday from Monday to Wednesday. Yeah babeh...

Random Tuesday

It is the second day that I started work in AlRahji Bank, an assignment given to me by my boss out of the blue. Suppose to support the users here in the bank for 3 weeks until our contracts with them ends. Why must I be sent to this place where there are boredom and zero vibrancy? I need life! I need to do work, give me something to do! Haiz...

Finally watched Vendetta yesterday! The show wasn't that bad but sadly a particular some one find it hard to understand. Haha... poor girl, now I know what type of show you are not going to fully enjoy. :P

Suddenly, I am proud to be a Chinese. But strange enough a lot of Chinese despises their roots. They think that the root brings shame to their name or so they thought. If not because of the Chinese mentality, do they think that they can survive tough situations with all odds against them? Ungrateful bunch of snobbish wannabes. Yeah, our tribe have certain weaknesses and flaws built in into some of our traits, but those are just minor ones. You bananas need to get a grip of the big picture, it is some of the actions done by Chinese that you should be despising and not the tribe or the name itself. You want to have a westernize thinking go ahead, adaptation is one of our tribe's strong trait. But don't come bite the hands that feed you just because you found one shiny bone in some foreign land, the blood in you still smells like Chinese.

Your mama is still a Chinese yo! Your ancestors gonna bounce out from their grave to give you a whoop ass for being ungrateful you hear?

Steph Tham! Happy Birthday!

A birthday shout out to Stephanie Tham. May you have a blessed and enjoyable birthday.

Their Generation

Super cool lor, who say old folks aren't up to date? They even have a song about their generation. Heh... My Generation Babeh!

This week's update

1) Went out with Metal and Matthew for a drink, a dinner and a whooping 2 hours cybercafe-revisited. It's been long since metal return to the dark side and start gaming at cybercafes, thanks to Matthew, now all the previous effort of resisting the temptation to play games went to waste. Why you go and do that Matthew? tsk tsk tsk... :)

2) Went PC Fair on Sat after my college friend begged me to follow him, haha, i think he is reading this, but who cares, its my blog! The new Core 2 Duo processor are really cool! Window Vista is a no no for me for now, too many bugs and incompatibilities, have to relearn the whole navigation thingy majingy... Don't think I want to do that now. If only I won the lottery for 20k, then I would have a super powerful PC that I can play free cell with hundred times (or even more) the speed faster! I think PC Fair is a fascinating event if you ask me, so many chics er... gadgets to look at. syucks, blogspot don't have the line across function to cut out chics... aaaaaa....

3) Went church and then Futsal after that. I think I sprained my thumb. The goalie gloves don't work one, they are suppose to absorb all the impact which apparently they did not. WHY! haha... but had fun ler, so tired now. Yueh, Jean and Kwisty came for the girl's futsal session but once again, they went home with disappointment because no other girl turn up for the game. Shame on you all!

4) Dinner with my parents at SS2 and guess who I bumped into? Pastor Judah and his beloved wife Mrs Xiao Wen and they are in their normal house clothings! I think sometimes I must remind myself that pastors are very much human. Had ABC and cheese coated chicken chop, woohoo so fun to eat a varieties of food at a go! Sumore parents pay one... Wahaha!

5) Ok last one, go visit www.xanga.com/metalrage k! His latest post very insightful. Any girl interested in getting a witty, humorous, intelligent and good looking (his brother lar maybe) boyfriend? Give me a call and I'll hook both of you up for free! :) Hope he is not reading this now.

Have a great weekend, if all that you are doing seems overwhelming, take a break and reassess the importance of what you are doing, sometimes you find that you can actually not be too hard on yourself or push yourself too hard when it is not that important a task after all. Only applies to hardworking people, lazy bums like me must push ourselves harder, you hear!

Come for prayer meeting at Wednesday! Time for Chow Sing Chee show, bye!

College Fees

Hotel in Thailand

Anyone want to go Thailand with me for a holiday?

Where's my car?

Walking to the car park when belle sent me a message:

Me: Eh...

Belle: B... C
(coz she thinks A then B then C... get it? Not funny right? haha...)

Me: Paul sent the message d lar. You sleeping isit? Sound liddet one...
(walking from Open air parking bay to B2 looking for my car)

Belle: I'm sick lar.

Me: Better go eat medicine. Syucks where did I park my car?
(now walking from B2 to Rooftop parking bay because still cannot find my car)

Belle: Bwahahaha...

In the end I found my car at basement just next to the entrance... o.O"

You better eat medicine belle, I'm going to ask John to bring medicine for you. :P Laugh sumore...

Oops... Bam?!

During a call guiding user to troubleshoot her machine today:

Me: I have helped you to reset your LAN password, can you try again?

User: Ok, give me a moment I...

*suddenly I saw lightning strike so I shouted*
Me: BAM!

*User shocked for a few seconds*
User: Can I call you back later? Bye.

Me: *turn to colleague* Oops, I think I freaked her out...

Colleagues: BWAHAHAHHAHA...

There you have it people, one of those classic moments that will only happen to kim siah...

Plans till June

These few months have been a little bleargh... Well, I went to work, I went back to church, I hang out with friends, enjoyed myself chatting with different people through msn (I'm at my most comfortable self most of the time chatting through msn), found out about some mistakes from the past and am able to apologize to the respective people... yada yada yada...

Yet I still can't help but to feel that all these months have been wasted. No achievements, no productivity, no contribution to make my world a better place. I think I'm missing out on something big but I just can't figure out what.

June 18th, my contract with Manpower will end then. Will I renew it momentarily while looking for another job or will I just reject the contract if the deal does not comes my way? Dilemma Dilemma... now I know how Sarah feels when she is being bothered by not two but four or five choices at a go. Urgh... I guess the answer to my dilemma will be decided in another random ponder session I guess. Tend to do that most of the time.

I think I need a hair cut...

To Do List

15 funny things you can do when you are in the mall:

1) Take 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they weren't looking.

2) Set all the alarm clocks in House wares to go off at 5-minute intervals.

3) Made a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms.

4) Walked up to an employee and told her in an official tone, 'Code 3' in house wares and watched what happened.

5) Went to the Service Desk and asked to put a bag of M&M's on lay-buy.

6) Moved a 'Caution -WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.

7) Set up a tent in the camping department and told other shoppers he'd invite the in if they'll bring pillows.

8) If any staff offers him assistance he begins to cry and asks, “Why can't you people just leave me alone?”

9) Looked right into the security camera; used it a mirror, and picked his nose.

10) While in the gun department, asked the clerk if he knows where the antidepressants are.

11) Darted around the store suspiciously loudly humming the "Mission Impossible" theme.

12) In the auto department, practiced his "Madonna Look" using different size funnels.

13) Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through, yelled "PICK ME!" "PICK ME!"

14) When an announcement came over the loud speaker, he assumes the fetal position and screams "NO! NO! It's those voices again!"

15) Went in the fitting room, shut the door and waited a while; then yelled, very loudly, "There is no toilet paper in here!

*excerpts from a mail I received*

Chirpy...

In a chirpy mood at the moment. Trying to wind down and then hit the deck as soon as I manage to relax my brain. I lurve Frank Sinatra... already got a high five from Sarah... anyone want to add nother couple of fives? Heh...

Have a great weekend.

A Toast to Pea Brains

Today is by far, hmm... wait a minute, did I start off a post with this line before? Bah, who cares, anyhow... today is by far the worst day at work ever. Having to put up with incompetence is one thing, but to allow those pea brains to get off the hook after making a big boo boo and having me as the scape goat is totally off the scale. All those times of watching out for them, defending them, in return all that I get is silence and a messed up situation with all the fingers pointing at me.

There might be a line somewhere that I need to draw when being nice to people at work and I think the line must be drawn right here and right now. No more slacks for those pea brains... Well having said that, knowing me, I most probably will just forget about this when I wake up the next morning and everything will just return to normal except for the fact that my clean record as a responsible employee is now being corrupted by this stain caused by these irresponsible, incapable and selfish son and daughters of a pea.

I think if they don't want to use their brains to think, we should replace that brain with a pea and with food and water supply, at least then when they are stranded in the woods, they won't go hungry or thirsty.

Bah... forget it... cheers pea brains, you bring glory to your race once again.

Oh well... shall sleep it off with the singing of Frank.

Love in Wrong Format

Saturday Night Movie

Watched Stomp the Yard today, as what described by Koala as a sissified niggah movie due to the weird gay-ish hand signs plus all of the actors+tress are surprisingly all nigs. Don't get me wrong, I laugh at racist jokes and that is about it, am not extra racist here but it is Hollywood, strange that they don't have a strong cast. But nonetheless, I enjoyed the movie despite what Metal and Koala thinks. I have Leoric to agree with me on that so 2vs2, draw game.

That aside, lately I can't help but to wonder if I will ever achieve any good to at least honor God for my existence, as a token of appreciation for creating me. I did not wander too far before my thoughts hit a brick wall, seems like one fine day I will just move on from this world as a passer by, not making any impact or leaving any marks on the entire journey called life.

Hmm... well, I can continue to think and not try but I choose try. At least I can get into some action, end result matters but not so important for me since I just don't want to loose out without taking a shot at all possible opportunities. Even if there isn't any, I will keep knocking on doors until there is one.

I guess there you have it, I have decided what to do with life in just a post. Now that my mind is made up, just need to get up later for church... argh... it is already 4 a.m!

I think...

... people that gets their head bigger than the cap they are wearing are pain in the heinz (ketchup and chilli sauce brand)

... people that put others down so that they can feel good are in need of lourve (the place in France)

... people that tries too hard to act innocent are dizguztingz and should get a moral lesson about honesty.

... people that lie with eyes wide open are highly skilled con artist that one day might own the world.

... yippiecrites are hypocrites yuppies.

... I am random to the ultimate max lately and time for a high doze of caffeine!!!

... Unc Mike and Aunty Chiew Har are cool and their successors - Pastor Judah and Pastor Rose are omega rocking.

... I want to go home but cannot since still got work... RAH RAH RAH!

Good Comebacks

WIFE : You tell a man something, it goes in one ear and comes out of the other.
HUSBAND : You tell a woman something: It goes in both ears and comes out of the mouth.

Stuck

Why is it that traffic jam exists in this world? Because of that I am now stuck at my office unable to return to my home sweet home to rest and recuperate from these few days of fatigues caused by insomnia, stress, and mountains of work loads.

When you are too tired, really feel like you are stuck on second gear. Response time increase, witty comments aren't able to be generated fast enough, defenseless against any arguments thrown at you...etc... basically you are just drifting around and doing everything at autopilot mode, all that you do or say are just auto generated.

Why do I have to sleep at 4 a.m and wake up at 7 a.m. few days in a go? I have no idea... Just couldn't bring myself to sleep. I want to sleep early tonight! That shall be my goal.

zZz...

Holiday?

Yes, I would like to have a nice holiday. And just to mentioned a little bit about the movie "The Holiday" since we are at the topic "Holiday", I think the storyline is a total disaster. It is like a replication of all the pass romantic movies. Jack Black rocks, but not Jude, not Diaz, not the girl with the red hair. Other than a nice cast, there is nothing worth watching about that movie. I don't understand why so many people find it good or great. Well that is just my rather long 2 cents.

Anyhow, downloaded Anberlin's new album "Cities". After listening to the album 3 times, I only like 3 songs from the album. Thats it. The rest are boring/tasteless, couldn't really figure out what in the world are they doing. Still prefer Snow Patrol.

Well back to the topic, after giving it some thought, I think I would prefer an overworked day compared to a boring holiday. At least I don't need to find activities to occupy my time... etc Holiday without activities and plans are much dreaded. I would rather work till I collapse, at least all I need to do is work, eat, sleep, sleep, work, work, work, work, grow old, ... , die -end-

Boring huh... well try seeing things in my point of view and you might understand why I think overworked is better. But I doubt anyone can see it the way I do...

Oh boy, I'm darn negative... but heck, today is a hell of a depressing day.

Je- je- je- Jaded

This week was the roughest week of my entire work history. It was so bad that I felt my knees turn weaker and weaker as the day pass by.

The mistakes of the long gone seniors, the new process that was enforced to the current me, the double role of a green horn, the never ending of request and daily tasks... since when did all these start to weigh down on me? Since when I start to fumble at my post? Since when I was unable to deliver responsibility bestowed upon me even if the odds are against me? Since lately I guess...

I am not sure if I've gotten from bad to worst as I continue to work or the mistakes from the resigned seniors are just to huge even for me to try fixing them. There are too many hidden traps as I go through each details within the departmental process and records. Too many items to be justified, too many loops holes been discovered, too little time, too many people being ridiculous, can't breathe... Then the music starts...

"I was a stranger in the city, out of town where the people I know... What to do, what to do, what to do?" - Frank Sinatra

Well Frank, God is still good despite all these. I reckon we need to rely on HIM if you really don't know what to do anymore.

"How long I wonder could this thing possibly last? But the age of miracles, it hadn't passed...The sun was shining everywhere." - Frank Sinatra

Yup Frank, even if the working blues seems endless but HE is still very much in charge. Wherever HE is, the sun still shines. Well cheer up ol chap, we still live to survive another day. It is the weekend so go get yourself some entertainment will you? I'll see you on Monday Frank.

Ciaozoo...

Rough Day

I like the phrase "Praise Him when you win, Praise Him when you loose". Today have been rough. Started with a rude and ungrateful user, end with tons of work at hand.

But I'm all good. Had to stop work for few hours so that I can go to prayer meeting tonight. Was contemplating to skip this one but in the end I know if I were to skip, I would do it again and again. I can't do that when I decide to go for prayer meeting every Wednesday for this year. It might not seem something big but personally its a huge deal. Requires much discipline and strength.

Weekend was great but 3rd day of the week is by far the worst. Yesterday I was having so much work that I one person single handedly entertained over 30++ users. That is crazy alot compared to the normla 10 to 12 users per day. Yet, I manage survive the day without a scratch.

Well since I stop work halfway earlier, it is time for me to go bath and have my dinner before I start work again. Have a great night.

Ciaozoo...

God gave me a great weekend

This week have been by far the most memorable week ever.

Saturday was great! Played basketball in the morning, had some of the guys over for steamboat in the evening and highlight of the day would be another private session at leoric's place. Finally know how to play bridge! It's been long since we last do so many activities in a day together as a group.

Sunday (which is today) is even better, the sermon about HOLY SPIRIT by John Beyer is simply mind blowing and of course refreshing. Put myself to shame because I guess I've complained and rely on myself too much lately especially when it is about my job. I think my complains/whining are alright because I'm not getting what I deserve. But, I must not stay on this track of mindset anymore because it is definitely not doing any good for me and most importantly, I don't want to mock or ridicule God's blessings and plans in my life. It is a blessing to be placed in such a big company for a rookie like me, sure I must not give in to injustice and must stand firm to my both my beliefs and believes alike but I don't have to face my issues alone. He is with me and my aid Mr.Holy Spirit is in me hence I have not much to fear.

I shall be humble but confident. Yes I shall... I think today's video that was shown for both college and high school sessions spoke something to me and helped to clear my clouded judgment once again. God is GREAT! He loves you and so I guess you should love HIM back one way or another. Well, I decided to pick up from where I've left and continue to carry the cross and rawk all the way till kingdom comes.

Thanks Thai Chic for spending time with me today! No matter what nationality you are, you are still beautiful. Heh... will not say anything more because then you'll be embarrassed.

Well Monday comes and it is time for me continue my journey. I will be awaiting for that day when I can see HIM in my reflection and that my every action will be honorable to HIM and that people will see that only He is the almighty most awesome God ever.

Have a good week boys and girls. Time for dinner.

Work?!

Unlike some fortunate people, work started today! While all my colleagues (the chinese ones) are having a break till end of this week, I have to deal with 30 tickets/users and 101 pending admin work. Micro skills will be obtained soon enough with all these crazy flows of mails, procedures and yada yada... hopefully it will pay off and win me a game of Dota or two in the end of the day.

I believe in the Chinese saying that goes something like this:

"For a general to win a battle and claim the throne, millions shall die"

There is nothing wrong with the saying, because it does not speak of stealing, cheating or destroying. It merely says that many shall be sacrificed in order for you to reach the top, the "many" here can be anything/anyone. It doesn't have to be just your competitors, it could be your attitude or perspective towards certain issues.

Think about it, when you achieve success, surely someone will fail, when you are getting all the lime light, surely someone will be ignored/overlooked. It is not within our control, things such as these just happen. There isn't anything sad or negative about it, losing doesn't mean it is end of the world, it just simply proves that you are not good enough.

So? Get better and win lar!

Its the Chinese New Year

The Chinese New Year is today. Eve have passed with an annual reunion dinner and no ang pau. Somehow I don't really like the eve, maybe because they can't give ang pau until the first day of CNY arrive. pfffttt...

As the year gone past, CNY no longer have its liveliness. Or it is all because I live in the city that is why I can't feel any CNY spirit? I wonder how people in the village celebrate their CNY, but I bet CNY in a village is way more exciting and merry compared to the icy cold concrete jungle.

Even though I wasn't really enjoying myself, a message from princess definitely made my CNY a heck lot merrier. For this I dedicate this post to you my dear princess may you have a fruitful (kachingz!) CNY. Thanks for the timely merry medicine.

Heh... for the rest of you out there, feast for the day is merry!

Chill peeps, CNY is here.

"All the world's a stage
And all the men and women merely players
They have their exits and their entrances..."

It's the weekend

Friday! woot...

Interesting day because Bachelors party is today babeh...

Even though there isn't any booze *sigh* there are strippers though, two huge strippers. *another sigh* But it will be fun! Only thing is that I am dead tired...

Oh well, hopefully there is another private session with leoric and gang soon.

Wedding bells... jingle bells... all is well!

Wohoo! call me the rhyme-mastah....

Window Vista?!

Dreamers Day

Its been long since I had any dreams or nightmares for that matter while I'm asleep. Most of the time I would dream of people around me or places that I have been before. Most of my dreams seem so real that I would sometimes wake up with cold sweat or sometimes wake up with a laugh. I prefer the latter, might sound loony to choose the latter but days that I woke up with cold sweat are days that I am strike with immense fear.

Last night I dream that I was in a training camp with the leaders from my church. Rose, Julie, Jasmine, Kristy, Marcel, Aileen, Anthony, Aaron and Judah was there, Janine was running and climbing all over the camp site, was in the same room with Dalvin, Daniel and two other girl leaders. We didn't have enough blankets and linens the night we arrive.

The morning came and I was running all over the place cleaning up the mess. I saw Julie and Jasmine trying to give Rose a scare but they did not succeed. Then at night I would go to my room and chat with my room mates. The next scene was that we were going home and as all of the rest are going on the bus, I saw few cars coming stopped near the bus and came some nasty looking gangsters. Couldn't remember if they are armed but no one noticed but me. I was then pushed around by them and they stepped on my glasses and crack it.

As I was lying on the floor, suddenly the police came and save the day. All these commotions and no one from the bus noticed. As I struggle to stand up and walk to the bus, I saw two foreigners folding their arms standing at the side of the road watching me. On their shirt, it was written in Chinese - 父 (Father) and 牧师 (Pastor).

Later on I went up the bus and everyone was having fun and I just sat down next to Joanna D. No one noticed the bruises and broken specs not even Joanna who is sitting right next to me. But somehow I was relieved, I don't know why. Just a sense of relieve and peace, maybe its because the rest wasn't harmed. So as the bus was moving out of the bus station, I asked Joanna the all time favorite question in YC - "Who do you like in YC?" and my dumb alarm have to make noise before I can hear the name. Darn...

*There are no fabrication or exaggeration in this post. The dream have no special meaning to it. This post is just about the dream I had.*

Server down

The first thing I see when I open my eyes are blurry visions.

When I try to walk out of my room my steps are not solid. Heck I can't even walk straight.

The next thing I know I found myself sitting down on the floor because the hallway is spinning.

That is when I know I've lost to exhaustion. I won't admit that I am old. I'm just worn out from work. Futsal when you don't feel too well is not a good idea. Seriously...

Even now as I type out this post before I go back to sleep takes a toll out of me but I still want to fight with exhaustion and see how much longer I can last before the error "Server Down!" appears before my eyes and black out takes place. Doubt that will happen.

Am doing some work at the same time. I shall prevail!

Urgh... can't... too dizzy to think... auto shutdown commencing in 10 seconds...

*Server powered down*

*BLIP*

Saturday is a working day

Lady boss decided to do an inventory check cum spring cleaning with the store room on this Saturday at 9a.m. I am surprised how I was able to wake up and drive to work when the whether this morning was suitable for activities such as sleeping in.

Oh well I am going home now and it's raining outside. Freezing...

I can't believe this

I'm so bored that I actually want to work.

I don't like public holidays that comes unexpectedly during the weekdays.

Most of the time I would be left some where between "slave mode on!" and "partae time!". The feeling is so awkward that I have to spend half of the morning to decide whether to just slack the whole day and do nothing or be productive and do some work from home.

Well, today is one of those days. Thai-pu-sam... why must they have something like that on Thursday? My friend Leoric have no holiday at all, that makes me angry because if not for that, I would be playing Dota with him till the break of dawn.

I hate public holidays! Especially Thai-pu-sam! I'm bored!

Confused kid signing off...

Dare to Speak

Recently there have been some commotions going on in the blogsphere (blogosphere which ever terms it is used to describe) about certain newspaper is suing blogger Jeff Ooi for putting the paper's reputation down. Many comments have been made about the case so I would not add on to that.

I would just like to dedicate this post to those bloggers out there who writes better and more significant topics in their blogs compared to mine, kudos and may you guys continue with the good writings. Open the eyes of the blinded community of Malaysia and reveal what is true. If only I could have insights like theirs, I would be apart of them.

Since I am not, I would just practice their will to spread the truth and hopefully one day I would be not only a speaker of facts but a speaker of truth that shares His good news courageously to all mankind even if persecutions are at hand.

Goodnight Malaysia. May our perspective changed throughout time, and may that happen before our country falls apart. And all that are left worth arguing and conquering are nothing but rubbles and a burnt down palace.

Malaysia Boleh... I hope the dreams of our forefathers to build a strong, rich and mulitracial country would come to pass.

Yet another blogger signing off...

Stage 02

Stage 01 is almost complete. The modification of behavior and thoughts to adapt and survive the working world have been initiated. Test results have been recorded while real life test subjects are being encountered with the modified "Me". Results retrieved indicate that after modification, possibility to achieve primary objective increased.

However, the conclusion of Stage 01 testing shows that there is much more powerful skills available awaiting for installation and to be tested on. Hence Stage 01 is now been declared as successful and now is the time for - Stage 02.

Details of Stage 02 shall not be revealed. When Stage 02 is over, a brief report will be generated to announce the results.

Wish me luck. From now on, call me Captain Bravo.

Bravo signing off...

Note to self: Shall stop maundering.

Another day hectic at work. At least today I get to eat lunch unlike yesterday where I work through lunch till 9 at night. A colleague sent me this list of characters for March baby, and asked me how far true is the list. Well I can only tell her that characters can be built and there isn't a definite because in Christ everything is possible. Permissible? That would be the only question.

-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. Affectionate Shy and
reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous
and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.
Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up
feelings. Observant and assesses others.

March Boy signing off...