Single Yet Again

Time: 5:05 A.M.

After A month of complicated encounter, I'm single again.

However, not quite available at the moment.

The girl that I've been into so much have requested a time out and as a gentleman, any request from a lady should be fulfilled. Many sincere blessings to her future endeavours.

Then again, not like we have really started in the first place. Probably my fault for being an eager beaver. Heh... nope, I did not do something naughty if some of you might be thinking what the "eager" in the beaver is for.

Well, I hope in the midst of all these, what we have/had would be more than just "teehee I like you you like me". If not then it would not be worth the effort and time spent.

Don't ask me what happened when you see me, really. I'm still in the mood of playing the role of a heart broken chap. So, most probably I won't be bringing my most sensible side along these few hours, months, weeks. No idea how long will it take.

With this much of energy and passion left from the so called relationship, best to divert it into my job since currently I'm not feeling too secure about my role in the department lately. That is another different ball game altogehter, will share more about that in the future posts.

As for now, at 5:57 A.M., after having a tug of war with myself the entire night, I'm able to partially detach my wuss side and let go of her to go her own ways. Not like I have the choice but hey, it is my blog and it is my story.

It is sure going to be painful these few days especially on weekends when there's nothing much to do. The wandering mind is the devil's playground eh?

God, as disqualified as I am to you as a servant and a son, do watch over me and in this case, her as well. I'm still greatly in love with her no matter what the circumstances are. Come what may.

One day... one day... I hope to see that for once in my life, a beautiful relationship will be brought before me according to the desire of my heart. Greedy huh me? :)

Heading to office now, can't sleep anyway so work away I shall in 6:05 in the morning.

Ciaozoo.

The Day My Surprise Plan Backfired

Time : 6:05 P.M.

I’ve actually spent the entire day planning how to give my beloved a surprise on the 28th since she took leave. I am not really good at doing all these organizing, I’m pretty proud of what I’ve came up with.

The plan was to cook for her when I visit her on the 28th morning. My debut cooking and surprise act. Pretty nifty huh?

After having a few hours crash course “learn how to cook” online and purchasing groceries for the selected menu of the day, it dawned upon me that it would be even more surprising for me to drop by later tonight without her knowing.

The expression on her face should be priceless and I’m sure she will definitely be touched by my careful and well prepared plan since she loves surprises alot. Plus, she will be out with her friend (God brother) for a movie so I would roughly know when she will be back since she’s going to message me.

Everything seems pretty fine huh? Well…

An hour ago, she messaged me and told me that her sister (God sister) will be staying with her tomrrow as well so I couldn’t go over.

Bam! Brick wall ahead…

So the surprise plan backfired in the end. I guess I’ll be having a “good” time explaining to my mom what are those groceries for. But groceries I’m sure I can think of something but roses and red wine? Hmm… I’ll think of an excuse later since parents are not at home for the time being.

Need to get rid of them some how. It’s Deepavali and there’s like tons of open houses around… I guess I’ll have a few extra good neighbors and some todi kakis.

Oh well… Looks like I’m going to cancel tomorrow’s leave and head back to work again. This is what I’ve signed up for and I guess I should not complain.

Well dear, don’t blame me for not being a good “best friend” yeah?

Then again, probably you’ve been saved from a terrible food poisoning. With my cooking skills, anything is possible. Heh…

Ciazoo…

p.s : I downloaded High School Musicals 2 for you. So we can watch the third one in the cinema if you want to.

Lunch with The Ladies

Had a quite satisfying lunch today.

Went Esquire Kitchen with the ladies (Val, Ann) today. They have set lunches for working classes nowadays. Just RM 9.90 and you get either noodles/rice tagged with dumplings and biscuits/soup (Lotus Seed Soup/Chicken Feet Soup/Pear Soup or something like that)

Tasty and cheap. Why not? I think by far the most value for money and taste set lunches available in 1 Utama.

Back to the people.

I think in the two years and few months that I've been with the Company, this is the first time three of us sat down together and have a relaxed lunch having conversations more than 5 minutes long. 2nd time I had lunch with Val, my church senior leader. Can you believe that? She is that busy.

That could probably be the reason why every time we manage to meet up it is fun to catch up. Updated each other briefly on work, relationships and anything under the sun.

Feedmelah.com go check it out. Ann and her friends started it. The rough idea was that to introduce good food to everyone. I think it is good because hardly can find any good places to dine on our own especially if we don't travel much.

They just started so hold the critics and give them space and time to grow peeps. Plus Ann will be one of the editors/writers/food critic so be nice to her.

Time to work. Network is pretty slow at the moment, can't really do my tasks. Argh...

Hungry and Giddy

Time : 12:27P.M

Currently sitting in the icy cold office in Plaza Vads waiting for a call before heading out for lunch.

What should I have today?

Anyhow, will be here for quite awhile since there are around 90 over IP phones to be distributed out within the building. All the phones are now in their tombs waiting to be revived by me - their necromancer. Kinda cool eh... giving a slightest lively description to a germs infested phones long pass their age. Trust me, these phones are ancient. Comparing to the tons of new models that the company have made thus far, that is.

It will probably take about a couple of hours before I am done here. Oh boy, the parking fees is going to bite. Good thing there's something called claims, the person who came up with that idea should be rewarded with a Coca-Cola. Yup, coca-cola. I don't like Pepsi that much. Aha... what nonsense talking me.

Pretty hungry at the moment but my beloved have not called so she's not done with her busy meetings yet. Or she forgotten she promised to have lunch with me? Oh no...

If she does, no more surprises for her. Erm, maybe not to that extent I suppose. Not that I'll really get angry at her for forgetting lunch dates anyway. Come to think of it, I wonder if there's anything that she does that will really tick me off. For the time being, can't think of any. We'll see.

Waterfalls

Kanching Waterfalls! Here I come!

Going there tomorrow. Wait, let me see if I can find any pics online.

10 minutes later...

Nope, all the pictures are not of any quality. So i decided to randomly choose one. Wohoo... leaving from metal's place at 8 A.M.

Syucks lar I don't have enough sleep this week... sigh...

Depature and New Beginning

Time: 2:03A.M.

A very good friend of mine (Yangs) will be going off for pilot "boot camp" later today.

The whole course will take about 2 years. Not that we can't visit him throughout this 2 years, but it just hit me that things will be slightly different then on. Less one person to hang out with. The fun level of gatherings would probably be lessen by quite some degree.

I guess that is part of life? People come people go. Whether if one can prolong or maintain a friendship or boy-girl relationship depends solely on how much effort and how much one willing to sacrifice to make things work. I always believe that as much as the percentage of give and take should be equal to make a any sort of relationship works, there will always be parties that should be the instigator of activities since they have certain influential level in their invitation.

Anyhow, all the best to this good friend of mine and lets meet up when the time is right. We will all be drinking and merry like old times.

On another note, was wondering if I should share this in public or not since things are much more complicated than it sounds, oh well... I'm always the safe and steady type, but I guess it doesn't hurt once in awhile to be bold huh?

Alright, the thing to announce is that I finally found myself a girl worthy of my loyalty. Much complications are yet to be dealt with at the moment, I myself is not too sure how are things going to work out but like what Metal says :"Be a man, choose and take on what ever comes after that" well, those weren't his exact words but I'm a chinapek by nature, it wont feel right if I don't make it sound macho.

Well, went to church on Saturday for a concert, not too sure if it was suppose to be a rally, doesn't feel like it so I guess it is not. Joe's band (Darren, Raymond and James) were having their album launch if not mistaken. Sorry for the uncertainties, I seriously have no idea how to label the event.

Good to be back to where I belong. Yet things will be different this time, since I'm no longer a leader. Have to learn how to be just a regular church goer from start.

I don't feel fit to start jumping into serving HIM again. Nope, not spiritually nor mentally. Too many messed up ends that needs to be closed, however, I'm proud to be a struggling Christian nevertheless. Won't change the fact that God is still part of my life, but only wonder if I am still part of HIS plan.

*Deep thought mode*

Alright, time to sleep. It is rather tiring you know to write an emo post at such wee hours.

Ciaozoo.

Juno

Finally watched Juno today.

Twice.

In a day.

That was how facinated I am with the movie.

This is the first movie and so far the only movie that I've watched twice in a day.

The movie is just great. Especially the conversation and soundtrack.

Ellen Page pulls the role perfectly. Despite the pregnant part, overall this Juno character is to die for. I mean, how cool can a girl get? Rocker chic with an in-your-face attitude yet she is rational in most cases and not too stubborn at all.

Juno's parents are also probably the coolest parents on earth. Can you find any other calm and supportive parents such as them? Not in a million years.

Yet probably in the end, everybody might just go :" It's only a movie and people like these only exists in the movie."

Maybe that is true, but I'm giving probability the benefit of the doubt. There might be some wild chances that such parents, or such girl can exists.

Just not for me I guess.

Speaking of which, parents visited my grandparents last Saturday. Grandpa actually told them to put some pressure on me in areas involving a complicated life form known as woman. The order was for me to get hooked fast so that I can introduce her to them.

Can't blame them since they are aging fast. Time seems to be less and less grasp-able as humans grow older. Well, if only relationships are as easy as fishing, gladly yet sadly it is not.

It's 2:24 P.M.

Time to sleep. Work comes in again tomorrow. Even though there are much progression in terms of obtaining knowledge and gaining experience, it is rather worrisome since I'm placed in an awkward position that is hard to explain with words. However, I am liking what I am doing currently, so no complaints as yet.

Have another great week ahead you wonderfull readers.

recent events

Bukit Tabur

I am quite surprised when a I find that people do still come here once in a blue moon. If that is the case I think I will need to choose my post wisely.

If not, I might get into trouble. Unnecessary ones especially.

As to date, I have done quite some activities with my friends through out the weeks.

Went Bukit Tabur for a hike with Metal, Yangs and Matt last Saturday. The hike was more than what Matt and I bargained for. Apparently, climbing up rocks with no railing on the sides which a slip of hand or foot and you will end up dead is not considered as dangerous for Metal. Pffttt...

But it was great fun nontheless. The company was good, the workout was good, the view was muy bien (means very good) except for the returning journey. Almost had my knee dislocated due to the nasty terrain.

After that, had a couple of drinking session with the usual guys.

Then lunch with the busy Sarah Lim. Yes, Sarah Lim, you might be thinking " You serious? The Sarah Lim who have tons of activities going on?" Yes I am serious.

Haha... exaggerating but oh well, thanks for buying lunch Sarah. Hope the next meet up is not a year from now. Sheesh...

Time to go now, want to spend some time with my parents.

Adeu.