Word of the Day...

Time to Write

Parsimonious:

1) Extreme care in spending money; reluctance to spend money unnecessarily
2) Excessively sparing or frugal.
3) Stingy

Oh... if any of you are wondering what in the world am I posting this word on my blog, erm it is because:

I just found out that there's actually a word such as this this morning while reading waiterrant's blog. It's been awhile since I've expanded my vocabs list, I do enjoy learning about languages very much, all those intriguing yet ever expanding and sophisticated vocabs, funny grammatical errors, and so forth.

Shall not drift too far off from topic with my over enthusiastic love for languages. It is a shame that my command in all the languages that I know of (Mandarin, B.M and Enlgish) are weak, imagine how fun it would be to be good at either one of them! I could write books, poems, stage play, articles! I could be a journalist, a writer, a reporter.

Aha... ok, time to work. Earth is calling out to me.

Ciaozoo.

Snapped...

Today I snapped at a colleague of mine who was just doing his job.

I snapped not at him but merely at the issues caused by partly my own lack of pro activeness when it comes to tasks beyond my work scope and mainly because of the company management's great ideas and great processes which inflicted much trouble and dis contentedness among the lower ranking staff ie: ME.

What ticked me off the most is not the part where us employees have to clean up the disaster created by a crazy yet innovative yet clearly doomed-to-fail changes imposed by the so called inexperienced upper management team. Don't try don't know, that is the reason or to me excuses that they would simply use when there are a mess. What ticked me off the most is when there are mega issues caused by one of these 'ideas' or 'changes' which we have advised against, they simply just place all the blame on us.

I hate it the most when they say :"You created this mess, I won't bear the consequences, please solve it by yourself". Leaving us hanging in mid air grabbing frantically for a life line.

Hmm... probably the dogs of the upper management are keeping their eyes out on vindictive posts like this one but at this point of time, I could not care less. It is tiresome when your ideas, your points your words doesn't get through. pfftt..

As much as I want to complain about them, in the same time I'm sure my management team should be facing such pressure from people above as well. It is a vicious cycle after all. Dog eat dog world?

Yet today's post is not about that, but about a colleague, a friend who've misunderstood my over 'enthusiastic' tone of voice as to bombard him when he comes to me for something that I remember not receiving or gave away during the month of September. I probably carries an 'defensive' aura when work mode is on.

I guess amidst all the problems that I face, I need to work on my attitude first. It has been awhile since I sat down and ponder upon my daily actions.

"Find the balance, find the balance..."

I think it is a good time now since I was brought to awareness by another good friend regarding issues involving these area. Since people involved does not want to present the issue before me and talk it through.

Zen mode begins... ohhmmm....

They are back!

Time : 10:38A.M.

Feeling rather happy now since Raymond informed me of a great news. Thanks dude!

My second family is coming back! Woot!

Not sure if this good news is announced to everybody or not so I shall refrain myself from sharing further details. But do share my excitement. At this point of time I'm pretty happy... It's been awhile since we kept in touch.

Well, trust a chinaman like me to plan or to keep in touch lar, it'll never happen. I hate that part of myself though. At least now you'll know that if I didn't contact you for a long time, it is not because you've been forgotten, it is just that my ability to strike a conversation or keep in touch are very much limited.

Woohoo... they are coming BACK!!!!

Alright, time to go back to work in the chilly server room located in Plaza VADS. I've actually done my part, waiting for my sensei to impart the second level of kungfu to me before I can proceed further.

Car installment period - 59 months - 1 and decreasing.

Its the weekend...

Its a Saturday, woke up slightly earlier than usual, don't have anything planned yet and too lazy to move about.

The next best thing to do is turn on the wireless, crawl back up to my bed, turn on the laptop and start surfing/downloading/chatting/blogging away.

It is sad that even though I've already been facing the laptop and the internet 5 days a week for work and yet on the weekends I've to come back to them for leisure as well. Sheesh, what have the people of this era turned into? Or is it just me?

Sounds pretty no life. Yet for the time being, I'm enjoying the state of solitude my room can provide. It is like swimming underwater where the world is just quiet and peaceful or up in the mountains where waterfalls are at and you can just sit back and think/ponder/reason about/with topics that you have no time for during the hassle of weekdays.

So much for creativity...

Timing is truly one of the key to any successful "business". I've tell this to a million people a million times and I guess even without me telling, it is rather obvious. Even with us knowing this fact, tons of things are beyond our control. Time like these makes you wonder would it be different if you've been a faithful disciple of God from the first place. But then again, God is not the big bully with the magnifying glass and we are not the ants inside the ant hills.

Ray of hope...

I've not given up. Even if it does not seem wise for me to continue the pursue, I'm going in head strong. As of now, clouds of uncertainty and bleakness surrounds me, yet I'll hold on to that faint ray and inch forward in life and in love.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not doing this blindly and I'm well aware of the consequences and obstacles involved. This will be a tough battle and a long one as well but no matter the results, no matter how this battle ends, it will only make me stronger and in the same time helped the damsel currently in distress to grow and obtain new characteristics which will help her a long way in life in the future.

I've not shared details about how we started and why we ended. Not going to. But if you ask me if all these are worth the effort, I can tell you it is not about the gains or losses. It is a person's life I'm dealing with, further more, a person whom I'm deeply still in love with. No matter the price, I'm willing to pay.

In the past, I've had many regrets in relationships, and all I can do about the past was "what if", "how could if", "it could be good if"..."IF"s... Not this time. No more "IF"s but a solid and firm "I've done all I could at it just didn't work out". I'm sure some of you will be able to recognize how I feel right now.

When all these goes to past, I'm sure I'll have another good topic to blog about. Take it as a life's lesson? I guess I'm not that boring a guy after all.

Heh...

Enjoy the weekends. Oh and Happy Halloween.

Single Yet Again

Time: 5:05 A.M.

After A month of complicated encounter, I'm single again.

However, not quite available at the moment.

The girl that I've been into so much have requested a time out and as a gentleman, any request from a lady should be fulfilled. Many sincere blessings to her future endeavours.

Then again, not like we have really started in the first place. Probably my fault for being an eager beaver. Heh... nope, I did not do something naughty if some of you might be thinking what the "eager" in the beaver is for.

Well, I hope in the midst of all these, what we have/had would be more than just "teehee I like you you like me". If not then it would not be worth the effort and time spent.

Don't ask me what happened when you see me, really. I'm still in the mood of playing the role of a heart broken chap. So, most probably I won't be bringing my most sensible side along these few hours, months, weeks. No idea how long will it take.

With this much of energy and passion left from the so called relationship, best to divert it into my job since currently I'm not feeling too secure about my role in the department lately. That is another different ball game altogehter, will share more about that in the future posts.

As for now, at 5:57 A.M., after having a tug of war with myself the entire night, I'm able to partially detach my wuss side and let go of her to go her own ways. Not like I have the choice but hey, it is my blog and it is my story.

It is sure going to be painful these few days especially on weekends when there's nothing much to do. The wandering mind is the devil's playground eh?

God, as disqualified as I am to you as a servant and a son, do watch over me and in this case, her as well. I'm still greatly in love with her no matter what the circumstances are. Come what may.

One day... one day... I hope to see that for once in my life, a beautiful relationship will be brought before me according to the desire of my heart. Greedy huh me? :)

Heading to office now, can't sleep anyway so work away I shall in 6:05 in the morning.

Ciaozoo.

The Day My Surprise Plan Backfired

Time : 6:05 P.M.

I’ve actually spent the entire day planning how to give my beloved a surprise on the 28th since she took leave. I am not really good at doing all these organizing, I’m pretty proud of what I’ve came up with.

The plan was to cook for her when I visit her on the 28th morning. My debut cooking and surprise act. Pretty nifty huh?

After having a few hours crash course “learn how to cook” online and purchasing groceries for the selected menu of the day, it dawned upon me that it would be even more surprising for me to drop by later tonight without her knowing.

The expression on her face should be priceless and I’m sure she will definitely be touched by my careful and well prepared plan since she loves surprises alot. Plus, she will be out with her friend (God brother) for a movie so I would roughly know when she will be back since she’s going to message me.

Everything seems pretty fine huh? Well…

An hour ago, she messaged me and told me that her sister (God sister) will be staying with her tomrrow as well so I couldn’t go over.

Bam! Brick wall ahead…

So the surprise plan backfired in the end. I guess I’ll be having a “good” time explaining to my mom what are those groceries for. But groceries I’m sure I can think of something but roses and red wine? Hmm… I’ll think of an excuse later since parents are not at home for the time being.

Need to get rid of them some how. It’s Deepavali and there’s like tons of open houses around… I guess I’ll have a few extra good neighbors and some todi kakis.

Oh well… Looks like I’m going to cancel tomorrow’s leave and head back to work again. This is what I’ve signed up for and I guess I should not complain.

Well dear, don’t blame me for not being a good “best friend” yeah?

Then again, probably you’ve been saved from a terrible food poisoning. With my cooking skills, anything is possible. Heh…

Ciazoo…

p.s : I downloaded High School Musicals 2 for you. So we can watch the third one in the cinema if you want to.

Lunch with The Ladies

Had a quite satisfying lunch today.

Went Esquire Kitchen with the ladies (Val, Ann) today. They have set lunches for working classes nowadays. Just RM 9.90 and you get either noodles/rice tagged with dumplings and biscuits/soup (Lotus Seed Soup/Chicken Feet Soup/Pear Soup or something like that)

Tasty and cheap. Why not? I think by far the most value for money and taste set lunches available in 1 Utama.

Back to the people.

I think in the two years and few months that I've been with the Company, this is the first time three of us sat down together and have a relaxed lunch having conversations more than 5 minutes long. 2nd time I had lunch with Val, my church senior leader. Can you believe that? She is that busy.

That could probably be the reason why every time we manage to meet up it is fun to catch up. Updated each other briefly on work, relationships and anything under the sun.

Feedmelah.com go check it out. Ann and her friends started it. The rough idea was that to introduce good food to everyone. I think it is good because hardly can find any good places to dine on our own especially if we don't travel much.

They just started so hold the critics and give them space and time to grow peeps. Plus Ann will be one of the editors/writers/food critic so be nice to her.

Time to work. Network is pretty slow at the moment, can't really do my tasks. Argh...

Hungry and Giddy

Time : 12:27P.M

Currently sitting in the icy cold office in Plaza Vads waiting for a call before heading out for lunch.

What should I have today?

Anyhow, will be here for quite awhile since there are around 90 over IP phones to be distributed out within the building. All the phones are now in their tombs waiting to be revived by me - their necromancer. Kinda cool eh... giving a slightest lively description to a germs infested phones long pass their age. Trust me, these phones are ancient. Comparing to the tons of new models that the company have made thus far, that is.

It will probably take about a couple of hours before I am done here. Oh boy, the parking fees is going to bite. Good thing there's something called claims, the person who came up with that idea should be rewarded with a Coca-Cola. Yup, coca-cola. I don't like Pepsi that much. Aha... what nonsense talking me.

Pretty hungry at the moment but my beloved have not called so she's not done with her busy meetings yet. Or she forgotten she promised to have lunch with me? Oh no...

If she does, no more surprises for her. Erm, maybe not to that extent I suppose. Not that I'll really get angry at her for forgetting lunch dates anyway. Come to think of it, I wonder if there's anything that she does that will really tick me off. For the time being, can't think of any. We'll see.

Waterfalls

Kanching Waterfalls! Here I come!

Going there tomorrow. Wait, let me see if I can find any pics online.

10 minutes later...

Nope, all the pictures are not of any quality. So i decided to randomly choose one. Wohoo... leaving from metal's place at 8 A.M.

Syucks lar I don't have enough sleep this week... sigh...

Depature and New Beginning

Time: 2:03A.M.

A very good friend of mine (Yangs) will be going off for pilot "boot camp" later today.

The whole course will take about 2 years. Not that we can't visit him throughout this 2 years, but it just hit me that things will be slightly different then on. Less one person to hang out with. The fun level of gatherings would probably be lessen by quite some degree.

I guess that is part of life? People come people go. Whether if one can prolong or maintain a friendship or boy-girl relationship depends solely on how much effort and how much one willing to sacrifice to make things work. I always believe that as much as the percentage of give and take should be equal to make a any sort of relationship works, there will always be parties that should be the instigator of activities since they have certain influential level in their invitation.

Anyhow, all the best to this good friend of mine and lets meet up when the time is right. We will all be drinking and merry like old times.

On another note, was wondering if I should share this in public or not since things are much more complicated than it sounds, oh well... I'm always the safe and steady type, but I guess it doesn't hurt once in awhile to be bold huh?

Alright, the thing to announce is that I finally found myself a girl worthy of my loyalty. Much complications are yet to be dealt with at the moment, I myself is not too sure how are things going to work out but like what Metal says :"Be a man, choose and take on what ever comes after that" well, those weren't his exact words but I'm a chinapek by nature, it wont feel right if I don't make it sound macho.

Well, went to church on Saturday for a concert, not too sure if it was suppose to be a rally, doesn't feel like it so I guess it is not. Joe's band (Darren, Raymond and James) were having their album launch if not mistaken. Sorry for the uncertainties, I seriously have no idea how to label the event.

Good to be back to where I belong. Yet things will be different this time, since I'm no longer a leader. Have to learn how to be just a regular church goer from start.

I don't feel fit to start jumping into serving HIM again. Nope, not spiritually nor mentally. Too many messed up ends that needs to be closed, however, I'm proud to be a struggling Christian nevertheless. Won't change the fact that God is still part of my life, but only wonder if I am still part of HIS plan.

*Deep thought mode*

Alright, time to sleep. It is rather tiring you know to write an emo post at such wee hours.

Ciaozoo.

Juno

Finally watched Juno today.

Twice.

In a day.

That was how facinated I am with the movie.

This is the first movie and so far the only movie that I've watched twice in a day.

The movie is just great. Especially the conversation and soundtrack.

Ellen Page pulls the role perfectly. Despite the pregnant part, overall this Juno character is to die for. I mean, how cool can a girl get? Rocker chic with an in-your-face attitude yet she is rational in most cases and not too stubborn at all.

Juno's parents are also probably the coolest parents on earth. Can you find any other calm and supportive parents such as them? Not in a million years.

Yet probably in the end, everybody might just go :" It's only a movie and people like these only exists in the movie."

Maybe that is true, but I'm giving probability the benefit of the doubt. There might be some wild chances that such parents, or such girl can exists.

Just not for me I guess.

Speaking of which, parents visited my grandparents last Saturday. Grandpa actually told them to put some pressure on me in areas involving a complicated life form known as woman. The order was for me to get hooked fast so that I can introduce her to them.

Can't blame them since they are aging fast. Time seems to be less and less grasp-able as humans grow older. Well, if only relationships are as easy as fishing, gladly yet sadly it is not.

It's 2:24 P.M.

Time to sleep. Work comes in again tomorrow. Even though there are much progression in terms of obtaining knowledge and gaining experience, it is rather worrisome since I'm placed in an awkward position that is hard to explain with words. However, I am liking what I am doing currently, so no complaints as yet.

Have another great week ahead you wonderfull readers.

recent events

Bukit Tabur

I am quite surprised when a I find that people do still come here once in a blue moon. If that is the case I think I will need to choose my post wisely.

If not, I might get into trouble. Unnecessary ones especially.

As to date, I have done quite some activities with my friends through out the weeks.

Went Bukit Tabur for a hike with Metal, Yangs and Matt last Saturday. The hike was more than what Matt and I bargained for. Apparently, climbing up rocks with no railing on the sides which a slip of hand or foot and you will end up dead is not considered as dangerous for Metal. Pffttt...

But it was great fun nontheless. The company was good, the workout was good, the view was muy bien (means very good) except for the returning journey. Almost had my knee dislocated due to the nasty terrain.

After that, had a couple of drinking session with the usual guys.

Then lunch with the busy Sarah Lim. Yes, Sarah Lim, you might be thinking " You serious? The Sarah Lim who have tons of activities going on?" Yes I am serious.

Haha... exaggerating but oh well, thanks for buying lunch Sarah. Hope the next meet up is not a year from now. Sheesh...

Time to go now, want to spend some time with my parents.

Adeu.

restless

by Don Hogan Charles/The New York Times

Am currently not contented anymore with what I know, what I have and what I am doing.

The overwhelming feeling to achieve more in my career and to challenge greater heights have made my stomach toss and turn.

The level of stressed that comes with this dissatisfaction makes me want to throw up. And it felt like I'm about to do that every time I'm made to do mundane and brainless tasks.

Especially when arrogant yet incapable person are promoted to be managers treating us the service personnel like a second hand jerk offs fumes my agitation. Logic no longer applies when these insolent fools take over. They just want to show who is in charge yet they totally suck at what they do.

Even though I'm risking myself sounding like one of these arrogant and incapable working machines, yet I have had to purge this foreign and uncomfortable entity out of my system. Else, I would probably throw up here and now having the unfair scenarios kept looping in my mind.

Heck... when is my opportunity going to come? I want it bad, I want it now!

pffftttt... screw the corrupted system. I'm running renegade...

... while I sleep.

Useless eh? In the end, have still to give in to worldly ways for survival sake. Or maybe I am just that powerless and incapable to begin with.

Either way, soy un rebelde...

ése es todo para los lectores ahora estimados .

Confused

For those who have been reading the newspapers or following the news in the country diligently, I'm am very sure by now you are well aware of how messed up our country's legal system is.

For a guy who spew rubbish that caused Malaysian to feel uncomfortable due to the racist context, all he had was a 3 years suspension from joining a political party.

As for the reporter who reported the exact words from such a fucking asshole (do pardon my language, I am very very pissed now), she get detained by ISA without prior court notice, and newspapers like The Sun, Sin Chew Jit Poh, and so forth are being sent warning letters for publishing what? The truth?

Now, in other normal country, the police, the anti bribe department, the national security department are all being monitored by the law and of course the people. Because in the end of the day, we tax payers are the ones who pay them for their services in order to safe guard the welfare of the people.

So now, in Malaysia, who are the ones that are monitoring the judiciary system and all the similar law enforcement sectors ? We the people (even though it is quite wrong because among us people, there are some just too bloody stupid to think for themselves) or political leaders?

Hmm, I wonder.

Well, I have no idea what will happened to me once I publish this post, but in the end of the day, I am just addressing these questions to whoever capable in answering.

Do educate me if you have a better view on how all these works in this country, because I have no idea who are the ones in the country that are appointed and paid to take care of the welfare of us Malaysians anymore.

Going home

woot. just finish hours of waiting :D

Going home from office now. Ciaozoo.

merdeka... merdeka... merdeka!

All races celebrating National Day

Woot. 51st National Day celebration finally ended.

Good to see all Malaysian despite the current messy political and economical state stood side by side and yelled MERDEKA! as one.

So if you ask me who am I, where I am from and what race am I? Here is the answer:

Name: Siah
Country: Malaysia
Race: Malaysian

Yup. I am a Malaysian. Despite color, despite language or dialects, despite religion and despite many more differences, I am born in Malaysia, living in Malaysia and proud to be a Malaysian.

This country is mine to claim as well and no cheap ass politicians can take that away from me no matter what they say or do.

Happy Merdeka to all Malaysians out there no matter where you are currently. Cheers.

Enough of patriotism, went check out Myvi finally and finally made a booking for the car. Well, soon enough I'll be couple of hundred short each month but I guess it is alright since I can finally claim that this is my car, fully paid by me and I am the owner. :)

However, bad thing is, a friend of mine who stayed a few streets away got his 20 year old Nissan car stolen just yesterday. He woke up today and found out that the old trusty no where to be seen.

Syucks, just when I am about to get a new car and this happen near my neighbourhood. Car thieves, screw you all. Can't you guys just work hard and earn a living instead of taking other's belongings for your own profit?

I think we do need a Dark Knight.

viva la myvi

Post title is darn corny. But suits the purpose of the post.

Yup, if you are slightly brighter than a glowing LED, then you would've have guessed what is this post all about. Either that, you just need to be as lame as me.*grin*

Hmm, *grin*? Yer, like girl liddet. Don't like.

Anyhow, back to the topic, yes, am getting a new car. pfft. Not that I want to, but no choice, my sist need a car to get herself to Uni for her PhD classes and back to her rented place. Something gotta give. Well in this case, someone gotta pay. Sadly, the person who is paying is ME.

What to do? At least I can ask my sist now :"WHO DA MAN?!"

Oh, just in case if you are wondering, nope, the new car is not for her. Fat chance I'm not gona pay for a new car just so she can drive to Uni and back. Where got so nice one?

She's getting my Charade Aura CX. My faithful and loyal servant, I'm going to miss that boy I tell you. The car reeks of good old times where funny, witty, lame, meaningful conversations been carried out. It's like my own confession booth. Only thing is, I'm the padre most of the time.

Can't recall the number of gorgeous looking women who have graced the passenger seat with there presence. A lil too much, I think I shall stop now with the vivid description. Hah...

Anyhow, the next car in mind would be a Myvi or a Viva. Sigh, not like I don't want to get a Honda or Toyota or Nissan or Mazda or Mitsubishi. The thing is I can not afford one of those yet. So push comes to shove, a Perodua lor. Sorry yeah, not that I don't want to be patriotic but Proton is out of the question. Even though the men and women from Proton might be doing their best to rectify the wrong doings of their forefathers but first impression meant usually stays for quite a while before they leave. Am yet to be impressed by them.

Don't get me wrong, Perodua are not that big a hoo haa either. Just that I don't have much of a choice. Ok. Back to the drawing board.

Myvi - Slightly bigger in size, cost about 52K, fuel consumption is a killer, 1.3CC, Auto
Viva - Smaller in size, cost about 44K, fuel consumption is the cheapest, 1.0CC, Auto
Charade - Correct size, don't need to pay for it, fuel consumption the best, 1.0CC, Manual

Hmm... I want my Charade back. :P hahaha... no no, Charade is out of the question. Well, I guess will have to let my parents decide lar. Since I'm coming up with 10k and they'll be the one topping up my down payment.

Myvi

Viva

Well, I think I'll go test drive them this weekend to see which do I prefer. Till then, back to surfing the net. :D Nothing much to do yet because my new team lead is too busy with his meetings and stuff, he got no time to pass down his knowledge to me. Kinda bored nowadays.

goodweekendatfrasers

Came back from Frasers few hours ago. It was a fun yet tiring trip.

Good company.

It is nice just to not really do anything exhilarating and just spend time talking, walking, playing risks or poker.

Well, had a good Ulu Yam Loh Mee on the way back as well.

Entire trip was a mixed feelings. Yet in the end, after a long sleep, I was able to piece the puzzles in my mind together.

I can see the big picture now but am I capable to present it to the person next to me? For the time being, not really. Plus, there is no need to do so.

As usual, some friends will still impose a certain character on you just because they have generated a certain perspective about you or the world hence there is no point correcting their views about you or the world because it will be like trying to impress a cow with kanon-d.

Every human goes through life following a path that is tailored made. The junctions that one face in life to each its own, having different type of bring ups, different type of talents, different type of intellectual capacity, differences in many areas so vast that I couldn't even begin to list down 10 percent of all the possible differences.

So to me, enjoying mind boggling, or intriguing conversations is one thing. Having to be too fascinated by them resulting into change of perspective of life, world, people... bla bla bla... that is another.

Just be who you are and make changes in life accordingly to your capacity. Excellence and greatness are very objective. We do not live for recognition, we live because we were given life by the Maker above.

Oh well, enough of my random thoughts. Enjoy some of the pictures we took during the trip.

Valerie, Weng Tang, Ian, Me, Joanne, Metal taking the picture.

Weng Tang, Valerie, Ian, Joanne, Me, Metal

A Dam in Hulu Selangor

Frasers' Olympics Archery Tournament

Winner of the Archery in the Frasers' Olympics

Me, Ian, Metal, Weng Tang

Picture quality bit off due to photographer lack of skill :P

One of the most matured 23 years old I've ever met.

whathappened

Woot...

Tioman trip was a blast. Pictures will be uploaded later.

Summary of the trip:

- increased alcohol tolerance level momentarily
(due to partaking of beers everyday)
- improved swimming ability momentarily
(due to salt water)
- discovered two endangered species
(their name was pinky and bluey)
- two friends almost with highest possibility had the chance of their life with getting laid
(but one of them decided to be rational and there goes 10 years of friendship)
- Clemens can actually be very funny and sarcastic
(sorry leoric... owning)

To sum it all up, we all had our fair share of fun. No too sure about the girls though. heh...

Work is boring and mundane. Well the activities that might be happening would be:

- Chelsea vs Malaysia football match on the 29th
- Buying the guys dinner and drinks probably next month
- Shopping with mom
- Camping trip with the guys before yangs goes to Kelantan for training
- Joining a gym.
(No, is not that I'm suckered into it but if it is cheap and it is near my work place, why not?)
- Weekend swim
- Watch Dark Knight!

I think that is about it for now.

day out with family

Finally brought my mom and sister out.

Supposedly to spend on them but in the end paiseh lar, i bought quite some new clothings for myself instead.

Cant blame me though, mom just went :"I think this will look nice on you, go try. Girl don't you think this shirt look nice on your kor kor"

Well at least I offered to pay for all those items even though mom wanted to pay. Working boy now, so can't be too dependent on my mom anymore. But she bought me one shirt though in the end.

What to do? Mom's favorite mar... at least I paid for my sister's shoe and a treated them to a fancy lunch in Zanmai sushi. Not a bad place lar, price almost similar to the rest of the sushi outlets out there. The only part i enjoyed is the soft shell crab, satisfying.

Days like today won't last forever, not when petrol price have to be hiked up so many percent.

With the current situation, many heads will roll. Let's pray that everyone can keep their job and continue to make a living in this dire condition. When the country is mismanaged, what else do we - the people, expect?

Embrace the impact and survive through the sufferings perhaps.

At this point, I seriously do not know who we as the citizens of Malaysia can trust to bring us out of this misery. Those in power or those trying to gain power?

Ciaozoo...

break+boredom=cancel leave

I took the entire week off just so I can be a filial son bringing my mom out for fancy lunch, movies, and even some shopping till how ever much my wallet could last.

Lease that I know, mom actually had her own plan for the week and left her good son sitting at home with nothing to do.

Surfing the net, watching drama series, reading comics, *blergh* boring activities.

So in the end, the intelligent me decided to cancel tomorrow's leave and go back to work. WOOT!

At least I had Wednesday planned. So going to continue on with the leave taking. As for Thursday and Friday? Hmm, have not decided yet. We'll see how things going in the end.

Time to sleep, going for the first shift tomorrow morning. It is going to be a heck of a work day with holiday mood still in mind.

Can't wait for Dark Knight to arrive. Hope it is similar if not better than Ironman.

Hmm, hope can surprise dizzy daizy tomorrow when I go back to work when I should've been on leave. The expression on her face, would be priceless.

Ciaozoo.

dunowattoputhere

It is weird to have so many things going on in life yet non of them felt lasting nor permanent.

I guess thats why we need to embrace moments in life which are significant for that very second just so we have memories which we can fall back to as we continue through the course of life?

Wow... deep... ahaha...

Its almost 2 in the morning and I'm still up. Sitting on a semi deformed chair typing away. Not comfortable at all. Listening to songs from Denise's blog. Guess what? She is old enough to get her 'Undang'... gosh... I'm old!

Hmm the deepness just went *poofed*

Urgh, feeling so transparent now as though I do not exists. Nothing emo about this, nor am I in depression. Its just a feeling I get most of the time. Moment of weakness? Heh...

I'm labeled as a ladies man again today. I'll spare those boring details of how I saved the damsel from distress, my point is... what point was I going to get to again? Oh yeah... I've been called a fag again. Haha... ladies man.... I don't want that, my macho side tells me so. Metro sexual... *ptui*

Random post again. Time for bed. Work still goes on tomorrow. Having colleagues who will take leave for the sake of watching football match I can understand, but to take leave just to watch Thomas Cup? What is wrong with all of you! Haha...

Ciaozu...

wewonManU

Last week, we had a match against the same team of 17 ruffians who calls themselves die hard ManU supporters that trashed my incomplete futsal team two weeks back. Was expecting for a friendly match so that we can improve our skills but to my surprise, they actually challenged us to a bet.

The bet was:

The loosing team will pay for the court rental fees plus top up another 100 bucks for the winning team.

Seeing that this will not be good to the friendship when we win, of course we quickly refused. Plus we Liverpool supporters totally into sportsmanship. Yet they kept pestering and thrash talking to my team captain. What to do? When idiots asking for a kick in the tush so that they can fall into the pits of depression, how can we refuse?

In the end of the day, what do you expect the outcome will be?

Of course we won the match and they with their proudly imported blabber mouthed keeper ended up paying for the court. We tried telling them that we wouldn't mind splitting the fees when the score was 8-8, we didn't really want to bet in the first place but what to do? ManU supporters are just so egoistic. We can't help if jackasses wished to remain an ass right?

Do note that we the gentlemen didn't take the 100 bucks from them thinking that they probably need it to buy themselves a couple of beers just to drown their sorrows. Poor chaps.

I guess life is not always perfect huh?

Looking forward to tomorrow's game though... Woot... Pepe is back...

Of Futsal and Weekends...

Had futsal yesterday, played against a team of 7 who's stamina and speed are far superior than those that I've encountered before. Not to mention that they are rather rough on the field as well. Would've easily given them a few yellow or red cards if I were to be the referee.

Plus the fact that I had my team captain and my MVP down with stomach discomfort and the other knee injury, our make do team was trashed. The difference in scores are so vast that I'm too ashamed to even mention those numbers here.

However, I will still salute my all star defender for being exceptionally on fire and passionate through out the entire game without giving in to circumstances. For that, he - Clemen Lawrence a.k.a Slider a.k.a Lawrence of the Arabia, was given the title "Man of The Match".

Compared to Mr.Arabia, I was not being a team player at all. I have not displayed any sportsmanship nor passion to my position as a goal keeper as I should. I'm greatly ashamed of my attitude for giving up easily even before the game ends. I played badly yesterday and it was a great humiliation to me not because of loosing the match but because of my attitude in accepting defeat before the battle starts.

Time to buck up on my side, skill wise and as well as my sportsmanship.

This weekend would be probably the lousiest weekends of all. Having in mind of a certain someone too far for my reach. Having "maybes" and "perhaps" wandering all over my logics and rationality. Six months of wishful thinking... and counting down.

Boy, this would be one of those times where regrets are just around the corner...

Cibal Shi...

6 months

In 6 months (at least that is what I have been told), I would have a shot at pitching myself to a client.

In 6 months, lifestyle could have a 360 degree changes or returning to its mundane cycle.

In 6 months anything could happen.

In 6 months, I could be a millionaire.

6 months...

if only 6 months would be the fixed term to end my misery.

doknowwhattoputhere

I like Homer. *haha*

Previous post was so spur of the moment. I guess I was having some difficult time at work plus some relationship issues that made me in such a "Blarghing-mood" sorta state of mind. Probably don't know how to express the mess that I got myself into hence produced such a simple but meaningless post.

I've said this many times but it never gets old. Reading through some of my old posts amazes me sometimes. Amazed by the randomness and stupidity of the contents, there are hardly any facts or useful information included in most of those post. I think it is because I was too lazy to draft and finalize before I post.

I like Homer Hulk.

Had a brief dinner with Metal yesterday. Good to catch up with this old friend once in awhile. He is one of those people that speaks with insights alongside with tons of nonsense (mind you that these nonsense are 90% funny 90% of the time).

But yesterday was the first time we actually talked about girls and he had something positive to say about relationships heck he finally have someone in mind that could make this intelligent nut case all mushy. The sight of a mushy METAL was gross... but I'm glad. Means he is not gay after all.

Yangs, you are saved.

Then we went on talking about how negative I was, always admit defeat before the battle even starts. I have to agree with him, I am that negative. Especially in areas that I am not in full control. But you will never find that attitude when I'm playing FSP games or futsal, I play to pwnzed. I might not necessary win, but I will play till the fat mama sings.

Haha, fat mama sings. Doesn't make sense but just want to put it there for fun sakes.

Anyhow, time to go back to work. Ciaoza.

~!@#$%^&*()_+

WARGH...

Well that is all I have to say for this post. In a really foul mood at the moment. This is one of those times where you wished you have special powers to unleash it into thin air just for the heck of it after being moody for too long.

Ouch..

Today I spent half an hour walking in Midvalley Megamall and within 5 minutes, I've took out my ATM card out of my wallet swipe it over the card reader and watch silently as RM 3000 flew out from my ATM card chip into the reader and landed nicely into the bank account of the card reader's owner.

And in return, I was given a big red plastic bag with a medium sized box in it. It was rather heavey to carry about if you asked me. Who in their right mind will give up their 1 and a half month pay in return for something heavy?

Me...

Enough with all the giberish, yes, yours truly spent RM 3000 on a Fujitsu Laptop today while walking about Midvalley. It was not a splurge, it was for a cause, a cause that would not benefit me in anyway. The purchase was made so that my 23 years old sister can have a mobile machine to work on her final year thesis reasearch that will be due in two weeks time.

She better be thankful for having a kind hearted older brother such as I. For a person who would not spend more than RM 1000 a month on himself, this was some one of those huge step that I've taken in my life up till now. Come to think of it, I've never own a single gadget of my own since the day I know how to earn my own living. MP3, Digital Camera and now a laptop, all owned by my sister at my expenses.

Anyhow, it was fun owning you Mr. C. May you find new happiness in your new dwelling place (another man's bank account).

Which jack ass dare to call me a scrooge will get a whoop ass from me from now on.

Below is the jail shot that I took of the culprit which causes today's ranting. Remember that face of his well, it will be last time you will see him appearing in my life:

Series 24

Woot...

I'm 24 today!

Funny that my colleagues are telling me that I'm so young and how they would sit by the window and recall back a time so long ago when they are 24 years old. Young and vibrant. Hmm... I can't help but to take a look at them from top to toe and wondering if such a time ever existed for the likes of them. heh... evil me.

I guess few more years down the road, when I hear that it's someone's 24th birthday, probably I will have the same reaction, probably I will be scanned upon by a colleague many many years younger than me and thinking the same thing. Maybe... or I'll continue to be cool and rawkingz till the ends of the earth.

Anyhow, 2 more hours and I'm 24 years and 1 day old. All I could think of now is rawk on DAP. And God bless Malaysia... Need tons of miracles to bring the country back up again. Today's share market was a free fall... this is what they called "deepshitz" situation.

Kudos to Jeff Ooi! He won the election and is now part of the parliament. Those jokers who give him a tough time before this, all the best because you guys gona get pwnzed.

Live on Malaysia, Live on Kim Siah. :P

Med School

First-year students at Med School were receiving their first anatomy class with a real dead human body. They all gathered around the surgery table with the body covered with a white sheet.

The professor started the class by telling them,

"In medicine, it is necessary to have 2 important qualities as a doctor. The first is that you not be disgusted by anything involving the human body."

For an example, the Professor pulled back the sheet, stuck his finger in the butt of the corpse, withdrew it and stuck his finger in his mouth. "Go ahead and do the same thing," he told his students.

The students freaked out, hesitated for several minutes, but eventually took turns sticking a finger in the butt of the dead body and sucking on it. When everyone had finished, the Professor looked at them and told them,

"The second most important quality is observation. I stuck in my middle finger and sucked on my index finger. Now learn to pay attention."

Of the weekends and bla bla bla...

Switchfoot was a blast! Woohoo!

Well, not that I went for the concert last Saturday but yeah, they are Switchfoot, what do you expect from their concert if not anything more than great? Heh... Hope they come back next year, this time will keep an eye out for their concert date. Not really a big fan of concerts or any particular bands but once in awhile joining the lively young crowd in a "Rah rah rah rah-jumping crazed" atmosphere will probably make me feel lil bit younger.

Sister is back though for the CNY holiday. Much awaited break for her since the past months have been hectic for her. So many lab sessions and exams, I think she will be happily finishing all the canto series I downloaded for her. I think I'll be a little bit extra nice to her since she's been hardworking.

As usual nothing much have happened for the weekends but last Thursday was memorable. Had dinner with Paul, Sarah and Kristy. After like what felt centuries, finally get to meet up with them. Plus, Kristy is going off this coming Saturday. Definitely going to miss her. There's no other Kristy in this world so... yeah...

Today is the day where I will splurge on 3 boxes of Gundam models. Not sure if I'm going to live to regret today's splurging. I'm going for it. Below are some of the pictures of how it is going to look like when it is completed.

Wing Gundam Zero Custom

Strike Freedom Full Burst Mode
Destiny Extreme Burst Mode

Of Cataract Operation and Hong Leong Bank

As I'm typing this, dad is in the operation room doing his cataract operation.

Well, nothing interesting about that, just pray that he will recover fully from the operation in no time.

The funny thing we encounter earlier before his operation was this:

Dad's Hong Leong Bank (HLB) visa card was blocked and when he called up the bank, he was told that there's a 90 ringgit fees that he did not clear hence he is not allowed to use the card.

After explaining to them that he is in the midst of getting an operation within 10 mins time and that he will pay the fees alongside with the operation fees, they still insist that he pay his 90 ringgit!

Bloody HLB fools. Process is a process that I can agree with, but if I'm a bank and my client with a stable income and financial status wants to spend another few k before he pays up the petty little 90 ringgit of stupid fees that appears from no where (mind you the card's annual fees are waved) I would with the least of worries allow him to use the card again!

Well the next time I see any person trying to sell me their HLB credit card, I will just ask them to shove their cards up their management ass. Basically they don't know how to hire capable people to make on the spot decision that would involve a little risk but in turn gain certain amount of revenue for the company.

This is really pissing me off. Well, will just have to wait for my aunt to come and see how to settle the bills. And my pay is not even transferred to my account yet. I think its time for me to op for a credit card for emergencies like this.

Currently...

1)Thanking God

Thanking God because there's nothing wrong with mom after her slipped and fell yesterday. Well, There's no way to be sure since she refuses to go for a MRI and X-Ray scan. pffft... now I know where I get my stubbornness from. It's genetic I tell you.

2)Cleaning up my room

Room is in such a mess that I probably need 10 years to clear up those junks! Don't even remember having those documents, clothes...etc in the first place.

Pffft... organizing is such a chore when you are not prepared with proper organizing tools such as files or boxes. Deciding what documents to keep, what magazines to throw, do I still need my old jeans, who do I give all these unwanted clothes to...yadee yada yada... you get the picture. I'm totally boggled at the moment. Though I sound like a woman here but if you clean your room once in every 10 years then you will understand why... x_O

3) Listening and Loving Laura Fygi + Stacey Kent

Nice soothing songs they sing. Me likey... thanks to Elaine for her contribution to my mp3 song collectoins. :P

Well time to go back to my spring cleaning session. Ciaoz.

The unexpected...

So far 2008 have been good for me. Normal year with stable income.

However, recently a series of events occurs that made this stable and steady progressing 2008 to divert its course, and head towards a worrisome and stressful path.

First, my dad will be expecting a minor cataract operation which after reading the recovery handbook for cataract patients made me realized that the entire process is not so minor after all.

Just as I'm preparing myself for dad's operation on the 22nd this month, mom slipped and knock her head on the curb thingy in front of my house this morning. How did she fell? Well, thanks to the darn dog that pooped right in front of the main door. Mom was washing it and stupid el cheapo tiles became slippery.

I'm praying that mom will not suffer from any side effects or serious injuries from this fall. She'll be going to the hospital for an X-Ray scan tomorrow.

Right now, other than feeling helpless, I'm a little angry at my incompetency. If I would be more capable, by now I would have owned a mansion and few maids to take care of stuff. Mom and Dad would not have to worried about making money. All they need to think about is how to stay healthy and live an interesting life.

I'm getting impatient at the moment. With the rate I'm going with the normal tempo of earning and saving, it will take forever to achieve my target. This is frustrating. Yet, I know somethings are not meant to be rushed.

Full on dilemma that I cannot do anything about.

For Laughs

From a colleague:

I took my dad to the mall the other day to buy some new shoes. We decided to grab a bite at the food court.

I noticed he was watching a teenager sitting next to him. The teenager had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange, and blue. My dad kept staring at him.

The teenager would look and find him staring every time. When the teenager had enough, he sarcastically asked, 'What's the matter old man, never done anything wild in your life?'

Knowing my Dad, I quickly swallowed my food so that I would not choke on his response; knowing he would have a good one.

And in classic style he did not bat an eye in his response. 'Got drunk once and had sex with a peacock. I was just wondering if you were my son'.