Time: 2:03A.M.
A very good friend of mine (Yangs) will be going off for pilot "boot camp" later today.
The whole course will take about 2 years. Not that we can't visit him throughout this 2 years, but it just hit me that things will be slightly different then on. Less one person to hang out with. The fun level of gatherings would probably be lessen by quite some degree.
I guess that is part of life? People come people go. Whether if one can prolong or maintain a friendship or boy-girl relationship depends solely on how much effort and how much one willing to sacrifice to make things work. I always believe that as much as the percentage of give and take should be equal to make a any sort of relationship works, there will always be parties that should be the instigator of activities since they have certain influential level in their invitation.
Anyhow, all the best to this good friend of mine and lets meet up when the time is right. We will all be drinking and merry like old times.
On another note, was wondering if I should share this in public or not since things are much more complicated than it sounds, oh well... I'm always the safe and steady type, but I guess it doesn't hurt once in awhile to be bold huh?
Alright, the thing to announce is that I finally found myself a girl worthy of my loyalty. Much complications are yet to be dealt with at the moment, I myself is not too sure how are things going to work out but like what Metal says :"Be a man, choose and take on what ever comes after that" well, those weren't his exact words but I'm a chinapek by nature, it wont feel right if I don't make it sound macho.
Well, went to church on Saturday for a concert, not too sure if it was suppose to be a rally, doesn't feel like it so I guess it is not. Joe's band (Darren, Raymond and James) were having their album launch if not mistaken. Sorry for the uncertainties, I seriously have no idea how to label the event.
Good to be back to where I belong. Yet things will be different this time, since I'm no longer a leader. Have to learn how to be just a regular church goer from start.
I don't feel fit to start jumping into serving HIM again. Nope, not spiritually nor mentally. Too many messed up ends that needs to be closed, however, I'm proud to be a struggling Christian nevertheless. Won't change the fact that God is still part of my life, but only wonder if I am still part of HIS plan.
*Deep thought mode*
Alright, time to sleep. It is rather tiring you know to write an emo post at such wee hours.
Ciaozoo.
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