"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
alwaysbettertousebrain...
Spent the night a friend's place trying to ease the job load.
Went through a long night of manual typing, dozing off in between and gave myself a very very very very stiff neck during the process and finally manage to finish tons of repetitive key jamming actions.
Little that I know, there are actually easier ways to do them without having to put myself through the agony if I were to just use a little bit of thought into it.
Felt ever so silly at this point.
Went through a long night of manual typing, dozing off in between and gave myself a very very very very stiff neck during the process and finally manage to finish tons of repetitive key jamming actions.
Little that I know, there are actually easier ways to do them without having to put myself through the agony if I were to just use a little bit of thought into it.
Felt ever so silly at this point.
Friday, July 02, 2010
macbeth
macbeth.
poor macbeth. became a regicide just to be killed in return. he was nothing but yet another sacrifice for a bigger play. but was it all a blame on fate or destiny? or was it because he took seriously the words of 3 witches that came out of no where?
would things play out differently?
and lady macbeth, if her husband did not tell her about what the witches have said, then would she be saved from a tragic death?
it is a sad story.
makes you ponder, to achieve greatness, how far would you willing to sacrifice?
what would you trade for riches, power, success and fame?
would you jeopardize your family's safety?
would you jeopardize what is right?
would you be like adam and eve and give in to tempting ideas and words and then having the rest of the decendants paying for their sins?
would that greatness or the satisfaction of getting the "throne" be worthy of all these?
to each their own.
as for me, nothing beats family time, nothing beats being there for your loved ones when they are in need, no greatness is greater than being capable and available to be there to take care and accompany your family.
well, that is just me.
poor macbeth. became a regicide just to be killed in return. he was nothing but yet another sacrifice for a bigger play. but was it all a blame on fate or destiny? or was it because he took seriously the words of 3 witches that came out of no where?
would things play out differently?
and lady macbeth, if her husband did not tell her about what the witches have said, then would she be saved from a tragic death?
it is a sad story.
makes you ponder, to achieve greatness, how far would you willing to sacrifice?
what would you trade for riches, power, success and fame?
would you jeopardize your family's safety?
would you jeopardize what is right?
would you be like adam and eve and give in to tempting ideas and words and then having the rest of the decendants paying for their sins?
would that greatness or the satisfaction of getting the "throne" be worthy of all these?
to each their own.
as for me, nothing beats family time, nothing beats being there for your loved ones when they are in need, no greatness is greater than being capable and available to be there to take care and accompany your family.
well, that is just me.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
oneofthosesighdays
as i am constantly trying to get my family out of the lower income kais pagi makan pagi state and heading no where, i went home to find myself a surprise.
a new second hand car. wow, look at how contradictory the sentence phrase new second hand car is.
no i didn't buy a car, but my dad did. but we already have a used car? so now we ended up having 5 cars at home. well 3 cars, 1 truck (belongs to dad's company) and a van.
reason for buying the car? so that my sister can drive to college and my mom doesn't have to fetch her up and down with the existing car. wait a minute, there seems to be an issue here. the thing is, buy a second hand car to replace another second hand car that is still functional. hmm...
spent 20+ thousand for a 3 years old Atos. good buy or not, as much as i want to be supportive of my parents decision, the heck my sister just can't drive the manual which i've been driving for umpteen years? reasons there are many, few of them are 1) its manual 2) its hard to drive since no power steering 3) etc... bla bla bla.
but have it occurred to any of them, beggars don't choose?
ok we are not beggars, we probably can afford a 20+ thousand new second hand car. but... to buy it now? gah... and in cash. OMG. my dad just cut himself 20+ thousand loose. which he could use it for investment. not something like a new second hand car. furthermore my mom and sister didn't really complain about not having a car and if mom is tired and sick of fetching my sister around then its up to my sister to suck it up and drive the old charade until she can afford to pay for installment.
why is it that they don't understand how much of waste it is to dump 20+ thousand for a used car! GOSH.
not pissed at any of my family members but more of the idea of spending 20+ thousand on a piece of used crap that will deficit by the seconds.
sigh the frustration! do they even know how long they can survive with the 20+ thousand if in future there is any mishaps? darn it...
i'm throwing in the towel for now.
sorry for the rant. but i have to. i need to. if only there is a certain someone who would just give me a pat on the back or maybe even a hug. gah...
cant wait till this saturday.
a new second hand car. wow, look at how contradictory the sentence phrase new second hand car is.
no i didn't buy a car, but my dad did. but we already have a used car? so now we ended up having 5 cars at home. well 3 cars, 1 truck (belongs to dad's company) and a van.
reason for buying the car? so that my sister can drive to college and my mom doesn't have to fetch her up and down with the existing car. wait a minute, there seems to be an issue here. the thing is, buy a second hand car to replace another second hand car that is still functional. hmm...
spent 20+ thousand for a 3 years old Atos. good buy or not, as much as i want to be supportive of my parents decision, the heck my sister just can't drive the manual which i've been driving for umpteen years? reasons there are many, few of them are 1) its manual 2) its hard to drive since no power steering 3) etc... bla bla bla.
but have it occurred to any of them, beggars don't choose?
ok we are not beggars, we probably can afford a 20+ thousand new second hand car. but... to buy it now? gah... and in cash. OMG. my dad just cut himself 20+ thousand loose. which he could use it for investment. not something like a new second hand car. furthermore my mom and sister didn't really complain about not having a car and if mom is tired and sick of fetching my sister around then its up to my sister to suck it up and drive the old charade until she can afford to pay for installment.
why is it that they don't understand how much of waste it is to dump 20+ thousand for a used car! GOSH.
not pissed at any of my family members but more of the idea of spending 20+ thousand on a piece of used crap that will deficit by the seconds.
sigh the frustration! do they even know how long they can survive with the 20+ thousand if in future there is any mishaps? darn it...
i'm throwing in the towel for now.
sorry for the rant. but i have to. i need to. if only there is a certain someone who would just give me a pat on the back or maybe even a hug. gah...
cant wait till this saturday.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
hmm...
many thanks to you whom reminded me that I actually have a blog.
my days are still the same repetitive routine.
wait a minute, its not.
i've actually had many interesting and new experiences for the past months.
in turn, much moolas have been invested into the entertainment and F&B industry.
i've been a true blue drunkard (the one that you actually vomits) once.
i've been into a club twice. first time still shy and didn't really enjoyed myself. the second time, i had a blast.
i've been socializing pretty well. been told that i do have rather good pr skills. if those times are not alcohol induced, then i can probably start thinking about changing my forte.
i've been to my first ever korean course. korean language is one tough rock. not recommended to just anybody.
i've been to my first belly dance performance.
i've actually drove down to KL and found my way around for the first time.
hmm. those are actually things i've been doing for the past months. but i also realize there are things that needs to be done. serious things. need to get down to those too.
to the bolder me who is coming out of my closet - i say cheers.
my days are still the same repetitive routine.
wait a minute, its not.
i've actually had many interesting and new experiences for the past months.
in turn, much moolas have been invested into the entertainment and F&B industry.
i've been a true blue drunkard (the one that you actually vomits) once.
i've been into a club twice. first time still shy and didn't really enjoyed myself. the second time, i had a blast.
i've been socializing pretty well. been told that i do have rather good pr skills. if those times are not alcohol induced, then i can probably start thinking about changing my forte.
i've been to my first ever korean course. korean language is one tough rock. not recommended to just anybody.
i've been to my first belly dance performance.
i've actually drove down to KL and found my way around for the first time.
hmm. those are actually things i've been doing for the past months. but i also realize there are things that needs to be done. serious things. need to get down to those too.
to the bolder me who is coming out of my closet - i say cheers.
Friday, March 05, 2010
Random 01
words.
feelings.
emotions.
memories.
expressions.
experiences.
meaningless till you have an audience.
feelings.
emotions.
memories.
expressions.
experiences.
meaningless till you have an audience.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Call it sacrifice or...
Often in a relationship. Any relationship for that matter. We use the word sacrifice a lot. We often claim that we are not expecting any form of returns for the sacrifices made but how far true is that?
The moment we use the word sacrifice, evidently part of us are expecting at least gratitude. If the sacrifices made are not mutual or equal, in a long run, like it or not, it will cause both the giver and the receiver to bear a certain invisible burden called stress. Straining the relationship. If not dealt with, the relationship will shatter in pieces under the enormous built up of stress.
I guess what needs to be realized is that all actions that are done for the sake of the other party, we need to do it with pride. For example, I'm proud to have watched a chic flick with you even though I don't like it. I'm proud to chauffeur you around from one end of the world to the other just because I have the privilege to do so and so on and so forth.
Doesn't quite make sense perhaps. Think about it. A couple tell each other that they love one another. So what else in the world would be more important but to run simple errands for one another? The act itself is simple but the underlying happiness and the acknowledging of each party in one's life is not. You don't run around doing errands together with just anyone.
Friends that tags along are often close friends, family members that tags along are often siblings whom you have a stronger bond with etc...
There should not be any hidden agendas when we do something for people we truly love, people who truly matters.
The moment we use the word sacrifice, evidently part of us are expecting at least gratitude. If the sacrifices made are not mutual or equal, in a long run, like it or not, it will cause both the giver and the receiver to bear a certain invisible burden called stress. Straining the relationship. If not dealt with, the relationship will shatter in pieces under the enormous built up of stress.
I guess what needs to be realized is that all actions that are done for the sake of the other party, we need to do it with pride. For example, I'm proud to have watched a chic flick with you even though I don't like it. I'm proud to chauffeur you around from one end of the world to the other just because I have the privilege to do so and so on and so forth.
Doesn't quite make sense perhaps. Think about it. A couple tell each other that they love one another. So what else in the world would be more important but to run simple errands for one another? The act itself is simple but the underlying happiness and the acknowledging of each party in one's life is not. You don't run around doing errands together with just anyone.
Friends that tags along are often close friends, family members that tags along are often siblings whom you have a stronger bond with etc...
There should not be any hidden agendas when we do something for people we truly love, people who truly matters.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Chuck
“To me, it’s not rocket science. Go about your day putting your faith in God and standing on truth. It’s pretty easy: are you a jerk or not? Are you doing things to benefit you, or others? Are you available to be part of the solution and not the problem? Walk in love and that opens some doors of dialogue. How about just starting to talk and see where it goes? I don’t think there’s any clock on it—your life is God’s, so let Him do as He wills with it.” ~ Zac LeviTaken from Zac Levi's interview by RelevantMag. Inspiring. A practical take on what faith is. Simple yet hard to really follow through since most of the time we do a lot of things in the spur of a moment without putting much thought about it.
Why think when you can wing it some might say.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Sleepless in...
I need to start sleeping properly again.
A friend reminded me that I have actually less than 6 hours of sleep everyday.
If I were doing something productive then it would be called hardworking, go-getter, focused on career.
But I'm not.
So the least I can do is to start taking care of my own body.
Even the blind massues in Hotel Mexico told me that I'm lacking of real sleep!
I always wonder, am I among friends or am I among a bunch of hyennas. Who can be trusted and who can't? How would anyone determine that? Personal experience? What if things went out of hand while you are testing the waters of how far to trust some one?
Well, can't know for sure and no point giving it too much thought. We will never really know what the other party is thinking. It is up to us to be wise.
I'm in the mood again to randomly type out my thoughts. The unprocessed ones... or at least thoughts with minimum filter. Can't be sharing too much personal info, I keep them for really close friends, it's exclusive. I think it is only fair since trust needed to be gained and if every Tom, Dick and Harry would know about whats going on my mind, it is just so wrong.
Am still burning my time away in the current company. O'opportunity, whereth art thou!
A friend reminded me that I have actually less than 6 hours of sleep everyday.
If I were doing something productive then it would be called hardworking, go-getter, focused on career.
But I'm not.
So the least I can do is to start taking care of my own body.
Even the blind massues in Hotel Mexico told me that I'm lacking of real sleep!
I always wonder, am I among friends or am I among a bunch of hyennas. Who can be trusted and who can't? How would anyone determine that? Personal experience? What if things went out of hand while you are testing the waters of how far to trust some one?
Well, can't know for sure and no point giving it too much thought. We will never really know what the other party is thinking. It is up to us to be wise.
I'm in the mood again to randomly type out my thoughts. The unprocessed ones... or at least thoughts with minimum filter. Can't be sharing too much personal info, I keep them for really close friends, it's exclusive. I think it is only fair since trust needed to be gained and if every Tom, Dick and Harry would know about whats going on my mind, it is just so wrong.
Am still burning my time away in the current company. O'opportunity, whereth art thou!
Friday, January 08, 2010
5 months 3 weeks is not a long time
lalalalalalala...
Friday is not a shyday.
like matt says it, HARUMPH!
okay, have several stuff going on my head just thought of pen-typing them down.
Signs and Signals, sometimes you will find them when you stop searching. It'll be just right infront of you.
True love and Self, both variables are undefinable. too much potentials, scale too large. uncertainties are just too great. sometimes no point thinking into things too much. appreciate and enjoy it while it lasts. both true love and self are hard to come by.
Have not read much book in my entire life. No fancy words nor owning writings to jot down the instinctive insights that i have brewed inside of me through life's experience. life have not been fair to me thus far but nontheless God is still good. i'm not lacking at least.
ok thats about it.
Friday is not a shyday.
like matt says it, HARUMPH!
okay, have several stuff going on my head just thought of pen-typing them down.
Signs and Signals, sometimes you will find them when you stop searching. It'll be just right infront of you.
True love and Self, both variables are undefinable. too much potentials, scale too large. uncertainties are just too great. sometimes no point thinking into things too much. appreciate and enjoy it while it lasts. both true love and self are hard to come by.
Have not read much book in my entire life. No fancy words nor owning writings to jot down the instinctive insights that i have brewed inside of me through life's experience. life have not been fair to me thus far but nontheless God is still good. i'm not lacking at least.
ok thats about it.
Monday, January 04, 2010
Back to Segiempat Satu
Suck ar.
In the end turn down the other job. Pay is just too low and the risk involved are just too great. If I am an orphan and have nothing to care about in this world then I would go in head on already.
Yet I am not. So have to consider for my family as well. Not that I don't like taking risks, trust me, I took a biggest risk in my life last year and end up still paying for it.
I'll just have to have a stronger resolve in getting the certification myself and have a fulfilling 2010. Improving myself in anyway possible.
2009 was alright. Spending first 9 months caring, loving and sacrifising and being passionate. I actually neglected a lot of other priorities.Yet I know it is worth all that.
That was the only passionate moment I have. Hope I will have more moments like these in the future.
Weird, ask me what I am passionate about in life, for now I'll tell you I'm most passionate when I was going out with my ex. You know how when you are a small kid and when you wake up on your birthday and there's a present next to your bed (I never experienced that before by the way), that was how I felt every single day when I was with my ex. Cool eh
Other than that, I'm pretty laid back and accomodating.
I like being simple. But I also like money. So I somehow have to earn lotsa money by being simple.
Who says simplicity is easy?
In the end turn down the other job. Pay is just too low and the risk involved are just too great. If I am an orphan and have nothing to care about in this world then I would go in head on already.
Yet I am not. So have to consider for my family as well. Not that I don't like taking risks, trust me, I took a biggest risk in my life last year and end up still paying for it.
I'll just have to have a stronger resolve in getting the certification myself and have a fulfilling 2010. Improving myself in anyway possible.
2009 was alright. Spending first 9 months caring, loving and sacrifising and being passionate. I actually neglected a lot of other priorities.Yet I know it is worth all that.
That was the only passionate moment I have. Hope I will have more moments like these in the future.
Weird, ask me what I am passionate about in life, for now I'll tell you I'm most passionate when I was going out with my ex. You know how when you are a small kid and when you wake up on your birthday and there's a present next to your bed (I never experienced that before by the way), that was how I felt every single day when I was with my ex. Cool eh
Other than that, I'm pretty laid back and accomodating.
I like being simple. But I also like money. So I somehow have to earn lotsa money by being simple.
Who says simplicity is easy?
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
It is decided.
Have been applying for jobs for the pass few months.
Went for 3 interviews.
Both 3 was an eye opener. And well, had my fair share of being slapped on the face by reality for being ill equipped with the necessary skills to sell myself.
A manager for one of these company called me this afternoon and offered me a job with a pay cut.
A friend told me that I should consider where my passion lies and then only pursue towards the career path because it will be back to square one if I don't fully enjoy what I am doing.
The thing is, I don't really have passion. At least not anymore. The only time I was really passionate and was willing to give my entire life into working things out is when I was still together with my previous girlfriend.
Other than that, I've never really have anything that I truly enjoyed doing. I don't mind doing anything or everything but I just don't feel the excitement. Maybe because of that, I'm such a bore.
Bumi company + pay cut + unknown benefits + unknown passion = hell no.
But in the end I decided to dive head in and give it a good try. Gosh, I seriously have no idea how to pay for my expenses with this pay cut.
I've always been not too bright. And a tad bit too straight forward. One day my downfall might be caused by that.
I think I need to learn how to have fun.
Went for 3 interviews.
Both 3 was an eye opener. And well, had my fair share of being slapped on the face by reality for being ill equipped with the necessary skills to sell myself.
A manager for one of these company called me this afternoon and offered me a job with a pay cut.
A friend told me that I should consider where my passion lies and then only pursue towards the career path because it will be back to square one if I don't fully enjoy what I am doing.
The thing is, I don't really have passion. At least not anymore. The only time I was really passionate and was willing to give my entire life into working things out is when I was still together with my previous girlfriend.
Other than that, I've never really have anything that I truly enjoyed doing. I don't mind doing anything or everything but I just don't feel the excitement. Maybe because of that, I'm such a bore.
Bumi company + pay cut + unknown benefits + unknown passion = hell no.
But in the end I decided to dive head in and give it a good try. Gosh, I seriously have no idea how to pay for my expenses with this pay cut.
I've always been not too bright. And a tad bit too straight forward. One day my downfall might be caused by that.
I think I need to learn how to have fun.
Monday, December 21, 2009
A Not So Dull 2009
Year end is closing in.
2010 dropping by like 2009 was just yesterday.
The sweet sour bitter of 2009 will remain as valuable experiences and memories.
Merry Christmas to all and just in case I party too hard, have a great new year as well!
Quarter of a decade and I think this time, I really need a sound resolution for the year 2010.
Come on, how long can a dude chill when his career is not even built?
Discipline. Need tons of them. Lots of things need to be done.
I will take time to plan out 2010. Won't be having a super uber packed 2010 but at least there are things that I want to achieve by the time it ends.
Why waste life when you can enjoy it to the fullest with a little bit of goals and objectives in the end?
Make it a fruitful year. Every single bit. Realize the reality of when time flies, boy do these suckers fly.
Back to the drawing board for me.
God! Guidance, Wisdom, Grace, Blessings and Mercy from you puhleeeze!
"Lifeeeeeee... oooooooh.... life...."
Monday, September 07, 2009
One Way Ticket To The Blue
It happened 3 days ago.
On a bright Saturday morning.
The dreaded phone call finally arrive.
After 10 minutes worth of conversation, a relationship that lasted 9 months is officially ended by the other party.
Initial reaction was "What did I do wrong?" and "Are there ways that we can work this out?" but deep down inside, I know there is not much left to be done or said.
It was nobody's fault, just that someone decided to let circumstances get the better of them and I am no longer the priority. I was not the priority to begin with.
Pain grips my heart. At this point, I can only suppress my emotions by reasoning and concluded I am just not good enough. No looks, no career, no money, no nothing. I don't even have the character to boot, don't even mention intelligence.
I was too careless to think that I've found my match and place all hope, emotions, energy and love into the relationship. Brought the love boat to overgear and before I know it, crash, boom, bang...
Yet there are no resentment towards her. I loved her and I still do. And am trying constantly to uphold my composure especially when I'm with her, my now new found friend. Caring for her as usual.
Only thing I can ask of her is to have patience and just bear with me as I slowly recover from this disaster. I don't mind the extra effort of taking her under my wings, I don't have to but my heart says it is only right to do so.
However, she assumed yet again. And decided on behalf of me that I don't want to talk to her face to face and that I don't have any obligation at all to continue taking care of her. In fact, she even apologize for breaking up.
Well, I don't know if you are reading this. If you do then let me tell you this again, you don't have to apologize for breaking up. You are free to choose the path you want to take. Don't feel sorry for me because I will get over this according to my own time. Just do me a favor and be a friend, and try to understand that for the time being I'm going to be blue for awhile because you gave me a one way ticket to heartbreak hotel. Corny, I know.
I'll survive.
Somehow.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Fi Fly Fo Fum. Dum Dee Di Dumb.
We are living in a world that everybody thinks they know about life because they have met with some down tides before.
Naturally, their every sentence will ring with philosophical terms along with poetic arrangements to it.
Bunch of noob ass that doesn't know anything about anything. I hate.
Especially those who impose their views on you.
Just because you have had bad experiences in life doesn't mean you have the right to pollute the younger generations with your skewed and skeptic mindset.
You can always advice and give a pointer or two, but to misguide and then corrupt the very essence of purity of a young person's growing perspective is just overboard.
Mistake have no master, it belongs to everyone.
That is correct, while you are thinking that you are perfect, you are capable to screw up the next second. For all you know, you probably are screwing up right now!
Or you are so screwed up and realize that you are, that is why you are trying to screw everything up for everybody around you?
Fi Fly Fo Fum. Dum Dee Di Dumb.
Or I am but just another noob ass who thinks I know it all.
Every effing pun intended.
Naturally, their every sentence will ring with philosophical terms along with poetic arrangements to it.
Bunch of noob ass that doesn't know anything about anything. I hate.
Especially those who impose their views on you.
Just because you have had bad experiences in life doesn't mean you have the right to pollute the younger generations with your skewed and skeptic mindset.
You can always advice and give a pointer or two, but to misguide and then corrupt the very essence of purity of a young person's growing perspective is just overboard.
Mistake have no master, it belongs to everyone.
That is correct, while you are thinking that you are perfect, you are capable to screw up the next second. For all you know, you probably are screwing up right now!
Or you are so screwed up and realize that you are, that is why you are trying to screw everything up for everybody around you?
Fi Fly Fo Fum. Dum Dee Di Dumb.
Or I am but just another noob ass who thinks I know it all.
Every effing pun intended.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
Updates on March!
My birthday was a peaceful one. Spent lunch with my lovely girlfriend and at night had a simple meal with mom and dad and a simple cake cutting ritual.
Cake was awesome, American Chocolate. Delicious!
Birthday aside, I have started going back to CG lately and am enjoying myself in the presents of God loving and fearing people. Something that I have neglected for quite a while now, wonder why I went MIA in the first place. Work, tiredness… etc, I think none of the excuses sounds right to me now.
Work have been getting slow lately. Worries me since I’m still under probation and if were to change job, it would be rather tough unless if I deviates from my current field. No point thinking about it now though, a step at a time.
I’m getting fatter by the day! I was alarmed with I notice my belly is developing exceptionally well; hence it triggered me to pay the gym a visit. Will start to jog or hitting the gym frequently from now on, no way in hell that I want to have the same size belly as my dad! NEVER!
Had a good chat with Metal recently about life and about almost everything under the sun. To conclude our conversation, I think all men are the same despite intelligence or experience. Only men will understand men. Even if it meant risking myself sounding like a gay but it is very true. We can understand each other’s worries without having to say much.
Oh well, am sick and hungry now. Shivering in the office even after I put on my jacket. Can’t wait till lunch time. Roar!
Cake was awesome, American Chocolate. Delicious!
Birthday aside, I have started going back to CG lately and am enjoying myself in the presents of God loving and fearing people. Something that I have neglected for quite a while now, wonder why I went MIA in the first place. Work, tiredness… etc, I think none of the excuses sounds right to me now.
Work have been getting slow lately. Worries me since I’m still under probation and if were to change job, it would be rather tough unless if I deviates from my current field. No point thinking about it now though, a step at a time.
I’m getting fatter by the day! I was alarmed with I notice my belly is developing exceptionally well; hence it triggered me to pay the gym a visit. Will start to jog or hitting the gym frequently from now on, no way in hell that I want to have the same size belly as my dad! NEVER!
Had a good chat with Metal recently about life and about almost everything under the sun. To conclude our conversation, I think all men are the same despite intelligence or experience. Only men will understand men. Even if it meant risking myself sounding like a gay but it is very true. We can understand each other’s worries without having to say much.
Oh well, am sick and hungry now. Shivering in the office even after I put on my jacket. Can’t wait till lunch time. Roar!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Maths!
*click to enlarge*And I thought I was the only one with bad instincts while doing math. I guess the tiger is not very far off from me.
=.="
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
In the mood to write
It is told that never mingle around people who are unequally yolk too much because some how or rather, these people will drag you down to their level in due time. The process is so gradual that even after it happens, you’ll only be realizing it after your knees went too deep.
Many of you might be having a judgmental opinion on the above paragraph - Arrogant. But I can assure you, it is nothing more but a sincere advice. Surely those who have been through such situation can attest to that. I for one, as non excellent as I am do fully agree with such an advice.
People from different backgrounds often have these presets of view towards one another. Most of the time I find myself guilty for having such negative and unfair views embedded in me, it doesn’t even take me a blink of an eye to open my mouth and start spewing rubbish. Even though some of the time I might be correct, but it is the attitude of it that I despise myself for having. Sometimes I wonder if it is that important to be correct all the time.
Hate myself the most when the irrationality part of me dies down and when I start to recall back all that happened in the day. Most of the time I would regret for having a more efficient mouth rather than a more efficient brain since all the negativity that comes out does not build nor construct but tears down and destroys.
It is fascinating that 9 out of 10 people that I know have this “disease”, yet it is not entirely incurable. All we need is to be discipline in holding our tongues and have a more positive mindset towards life. That should do the trick. However to some, they are too warped in the space of negativity that they will never come back.
Sad huh?
Not really.
Since the solutions above mainly rely on ones discipline, there is this other element called faith. Faith entrusted to the mighty God Himself. Much practice is required before I can call myself a man with the faith of a mustard seed. With so much of distractions, laziness, compromising and complacency going around, faith and prayer would be the only weapon against all which is not of constructiveness.
Writer’s note:
Wasn’t too sure how to put down into words for the thoughts that have been running in my mind, this is the best that I can do for a little part of it. So till I can record down all that is locked away in my mind “vault”, take care and have a nice evening.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Happy CNY (Belated)
Wow...
It is already approaching the third week in my new job and from my last entry till now much have happened.
Too much to tell too little time but nonetheless, these experiences are priceless. Not all are enjoyable but like I always say:" It is all part of the growing up process."
So far have not done anything BIG for my new job yet. Nope. Wonder if there will be any this year. Market is bad but if this job does not bring any satisfaction at all in terms of experience and knowledge gaining, it is time to resend out my resume again after a year since it is not offering any monetary satisfactory in the first place.
Even though the hiring manager tells me that the job is as exciting as I want it to be, but hey, how "Exciting" things will get with limited budget, limited authority, and as well as limited staff size? I don't even feel nice requesting the company to send me off for a trainings.
Maybe I should just be patient and wait till the end of year to see what springs up.
Happy Chinese New Year by the way! Even though it is already over but its the thought that counts right?
Oh well, back to looking busy in my humble cubicle. It is green in color by the way. Will take some pictures soon. Won't want to look like a lunatic taking pictures when all my colleagues are around busy with their tasks.
Ciaozoo.
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