Call it sacrifice or...

Often in a relationship. Any relationship for that matter. We use the word sacrifice a lot. We often claim that we are not expecting any form of returns for the sacrifices made but how far true is that?

The moment we use the word sacrifice, evidently part of us are expecting at least gratitude. If the sacrifices made are not mutual or equal, in a long run, like it or not, it will cause both the giver and the receiver to bear a certain invisible burden called stress. Straining the relationship. If not dealt with, the relationship will shatter in pieces under the enormous built up of stress.

I guess what needs to be realized is that all actions that are done for the sake of the other party, we need to do it with pride. For example, I'm proud to have watched a chic flick with you even though I don't like it. I'm proud to chauffeur you around from one end of the world to the other just because I have the privilege to do so and so on and so forth.

Doesn't quite make sense perhaps. Think about it. A couple tell each other that they love one another. So what else in the world would be more important but to run simple errands for one another? The act itself is simple but the underlying happiness and the acknowledging of each party in one's life is not. You don't run around doing errands together with just anyone.

Friends that tags along are often close friends, family members that tags along are often siblings whom you have a stronger bond with etc...

There should not be any hidden agendas when we do something for people we truly love, people who truly matters.

Chuck

“To me, it’s not rocket science. Go about your day putting your faith in God and standing on truth. It’s pretty easy: are you a jerk or not? Are you doing things to benefit you, or others? Are you available to be part of the solution and not the problem? Walk in love and that opens some doors of dialogue. How about just starting to talk and see where it goes? I don’t think there’s any clock on it—your life is God’s, so let Him do as He wills with it.” ~ Zac Levi

Taken from Zac Levi's interview by RelevantMag. Inspiring. A practical take on what faith is. Simple yet hard to really follow through since most of the time we do a lot of things in the spur of a moment without putting much thought about it.

Why think when you can wing it some might say.

Sleepless in...

I need to start sleeping properly again.

A friend reminded me that I have actually less than 6 hours of sleep everyday.

If I were doing something productive then it would be called hardworking, go-getter, focused on career.

But I'm not.

So the least I can do is to start taking care of my own body.

Even the blind massues in Hotel Mexico told me that I'm lacking of real sleep!

I always wonder, am I among friends or am I among a bunch of hyennas. Who can be trusted and who can't? How would anyone determine that? Personal experience? What if things went out of hand while you are testing the waters of how far to trust some one?

Well, can't know for sure and no point giving it too much thought. We will never really know what the other party is thinking. It is up to us to be wise.

I'm in the mood again to randomly type out my thoughts. The unprocessed ones... or at least thoughts with minimum filter. Can't be sharing too much personal info, I keep them for really close friends, it's exclusive. I think it is only fair since trust needed to be gained and if every Tom, Dick and Harry would know about whats going on my mind, it is just so wrong.

Am still burning my time away in the current company. O'opportunity, whereth art thou!

5 months 3 weeks is not a long time

lalalalalalala...

Friday is not a shyday.

like matt says it, HARUMPH!

okay, have several stuff going on my head just thought of pen-typing them down.

Signs and Signals, sometimes you will find them when you stop searching. It'll be just right infront of you.

True love and Self, both variables are undefinable. too much potentials, scale too large. uncertainties are just too great. sometimes no point thinking into things too much. appreciate and enjoy it while it lasts. both true love and self are hard to come by.

Have not read much book in my entire life. No fancy words nor owning writings to jot down the instinctive insights that i have brewed inside of me through life's experience. life have not been fair to me thus far but nontheless God is still good. i'm not lacking at least.

ok thats about it.

Back to Segiempat Satu

Suck ar.

In the end turn down the other job. Pay is just too low and the risk involved are just too great. If I am an orphan and have nothing to care about in this world then I would go in head on already.

Yet I am not. So have to consider for my family as well. Not that I don't like taking risks, trust me, I took a biggest risk in my life last year and end up still paying for it.

I'll just  have to have a stronger resolve in getting the certification myself and have a fulfilling 2010. Improving myself in anyway possible.

2009 was alright. Spending first 9 months caring, loving and sacrifising and being passionate. I actually neglected a lot of other priorities.Yet I know it is worth all that.

That was the only passionate moment I have. Hope I will have more moments like these in the future.

Weird, ask me what I am passionate about in life, for now I'll tell you I'm most passionate when I was going out with my ex. You know how when you are a small kid and when you wake up on your birthday and there's a present next to your bed (I never experienced that before by the way), that was how I felt every single day when I was with my ex. Cool eh

Other than that, I'm pretty laid back and accomodating.

I like being simple. But I also like money. So I somehow have to earn lotsa money by being simple.

Who says simplicity is easy?